Journal Entry for July 17, 2007
July 17, 2007 6:42pm
I AM SCARED TO DEATH! HOPELESS AND LONELY. I WANT THE PAIN TO GO AWAY. IT KEEPS GETTING WORSE AND WORSE. KATRINA WAS BAD. LOSING MY KIDS WAS THE …
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Journal Entry for February 1, 2007
February 1, 2007 8:46pm
New day..first day of work last night and it was such a relief. Sadly it reminds me of how well off I truly am. The nursing home is a sad place but …
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Journal Entry for January 31, 2007
January 31, 2007 6:33pm
I haven't shared this part of my problem with my journal as I am humilitated and disappointed in myself. But I have to let it go as it is hurting …
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Journal Entry for January 31, 2007
January 31, 2007 7:51am
Gone to work! An outlet for sure. Not exactly the job I wanted but needed to get out of this quiet house. Spoke with the kids step mom yesterday and …
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Journal Entry for January 30, 2007
January 30, 2007 8:26pm
I am home and yes, I went to the bar...why GOD? Oh my....I don't want to be here. I want my babies back. This is horrible..I hurt so bad....I hope …
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Hi there, I'm doing fall cleaning and it appears that you've left DS. If you return, please look me up and I'll re-add you as a friend. Hope all is going well with you, Mary ♥
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Are you still out there?? BW
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I am sending prays up for you. ((((((((HUGS))))))
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I do pray you have found some help, and relief from all the worry, Gentle hugs dear friend
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Close Depression
Been depressed since as long as I can remember. Came from very dysfunctional family (father an alcoholic and child molester). Numerous other family members (maternal) have psychiatric disorder (bipolar). Now over 40 and need to try anything to make life easier. Also wonder if I am co dependent and/or bipolar. Regardless, the pain is to intense and I desperately want to change and enjoy life.
Treatments
- Prozac Not Working
- Have been taking Prozac since my divorce (10 years ago). Wondering if I have built up a tolerance to it or if it is the wrong drug all together.
Close Codependency
I am not sure where to start. My childhood was riddled with incest, physical and mental abuse. Raised by numerous foster homes and family members. Never seem to get along with people for long. Have been in therapy (long time ago) and the therapist(s) always thought it was everyone else. I am here to say it is not everyone else. It is me! I don't want to alienate everyone from me. I want to be normal. I know I have many issues but also know that I have a heart of gold.
Treatments
- Prozac Not Working
- Have been on it for numerous years. Still having depression and co dependency issues.
Open Natural Disasters
Katrina aftermath...cannot get over the lost of children, home, career, freinds, and now sanity (I am afraid so). Lonely in different town. Unfortunately got involved with someone to deal with my loneliness and fell very hard for him. Now not sure what to do or where to turn. Very very small community and everyone knows about our relationship. Don't want to stay in and hibernate. Also feel as though I am a failure for bailing out on friends, family and career.
Treatments
- Prozac Not Working
- Sadly I have a history of depression and have been on Prozac for years. Recently MD increased my dosage from 20 to 40mg per day. Still not coping well and actually worse
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