SherrollW's Journal

Dear Mr. Jarriel:

I am writing this letter to update you on my situation.  Since our meeting on June 27, I have continued to work on my marriage, until a week ago, when Johnny told me there’s no use, because he’s unwilling to try anymore.  I told him it would take me quite awhile to save enough money to situate myself and the boys in a place to live, and that if he still wanted to kick us out, he’d have to file for a divorce.  I have taken a housekeeping job at a motel to meet the needs of me and my children that Johnny no longer provides.  I'm working 6 days a week now.  I want so much to get me and my boys into a stable environment before school starts.  However, I am willing to continue waiting for Johnny to file for the divorce, as you suggested, and will be a good housemate here during that time. 

Johnny and his ex-wife are scheduled for court in August about the JTRS settlement, among other allegations she has against him.  I have a feeling he won’t file for a divorce from me until after he knows the outcome with his ex next month. 

I don’t know how the card from Legal Aid works, but I pray my time on that don’t run out before I need you.  I'm not sure how often you get on the computer, but I'm on every morning with my recovery network, and this would be a good mode of communication for me if you have any questions.  

Sincerely yours,

Sherroll Williamson

I am so damned scared.  I'm getting paid $6.50 an hour to fill a supervisor position and I'm only allowed 5 hrs a day which don't even make a 40 hr week.  I have had no response from my boss about doing upholstery for the motel.  There is no way I can support me and the boys like this.  I know I'm capable of so much more, and don't have the esteem or plan to get some better means of providing for us.  School starts back in a couple of weeks and I only get one paycheck to buy Devan's inhaler, clothes, school supples, gas, cigarettes.  If Johnny would just file for the damned divorce, we could be put into an apartment, have alimony, my check, and I could apply for Ga Peachcare for Kids, and then help from welfare  until I can somehow find the strength and ideas to stand on my own two feet.

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Yeah, I hear ya, Geo......patience, right?  I guess I'm still trying to run from ME.

Today's thought from Hazelden is:

Patience is bitter, but its fruit is sweet.
--Lida Clarkson

We all want life to unfold according to our plan. After all, we are certain we know what's best for us. But hindsight quickly reminds us that few, if any, of us had included recovery in a Twelve Step program as part of our life's plan. Yet here we are, and we are now more content than we've ever been in our lives. How did this happen?

We have come to accept that God has worked in our lives in spite of ourselves. We have been protected and guided all along the way, even though on occasion we stubbornly attempted to force open doors that were not beneficial to our growth. Fortunately our Higher Power never gave up on us. We will fulfill our purpose with all the help we need when the time is right.

Remembering that opportunities come to us when their time is right allows us to wait and trust.

My patience will pay off today. I can be certain that what comes to me today is on time.