Journal Entry for July 24, 2008
July 24, 2008 9:20am
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About Me
My name is Susan.Born to New England but Southern at heart. I am passionate about horses. They are my angels. Now staying in Maine to start an exciting business that will involve my love of theatre and horses.I own a three year old Hanoverian filly , a ten year old mini horse and on loan a wonderful little quarter horse named Trouble. I have Fibro/CFS. I am an ex- actress who studied design at FIT in NYC. I am now an Interior Decorator and mother to a 13 beautiful girl. I am married and I am also the caregiver to my 80 year old father.
Interests
Spending any time with my daughter, dinners with my brothers and their families, gardening, horses(horses, horses) interior design, cooking, the beach, swimming, entertaining with my husband, friendships, shoes, reading, movies, traveling, hearing about others life stories, training to be able to eventually do Airs above the Ground. This coming year I plan to adopt a Mustang and work with it until it allows me to become a partner with it. It has been a dream since I was a little girl. Never to late to fulfill a dream.
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I can't be it all.
July 23, 2008 11:27pm
I am not sure I can do this much longer. I feel as if I am responsible for so many that are in crisis. I feel {that does not mean it is real} as if I …
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about time
July 7, 2008 11:28pm
DBT is plugging away. I have found it very helpful and very hard. You work every day using the skills you learn. I have been a caretaker all my life …
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Expo is finished
April 30, 2008 12:23am
The Expo is over and it was a success. So many amazing people there. We just had a meeting tonight and we are working on next years expo already. I …
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Hey hun... I just wanted to send a hug your way so that you know that I am here for you and supporting you all the way....I am sorry about being sick the past few weeks....thank you for supporting me ..... I love you with all my heart....xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxo
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Close Chronic Fatigue Syndrome
I am a 46 year old female that started with Fibro symptoms after the birth of my only child 13 years ago. Although I did not know it. I was diagnosed seven years ago. CFS just was added this past year. I am fustrated,scared,stubborn and refuse to believe that I cannot conqer this. Although there are some days I am sure I am just going to end up dying from these terrible diseases.
Treatments
- Cymbalta Not Working
- Made my fatigue worse and made my depression worse
Close Fibromyalgia
Fibro started 13 years ago. Exploded this past year. This is the year I am putting it in remission. Have a whole team working with me and we are going to do it.
Treatments
- Acupuncture Considering
- going to start it again
- Cymbalta Not Working
- made me too sleepy and did not help with anxiety
- Heat Working / Worked
- Cannot live without this. I have the kind the massage therapist uses. I use it almost every night and always after riding clinic.
- Neurontin Working / Worked
- weaned off.
- Vitamin B12 Working / Worked
- Actually I take B50. The B12 works better in the body when accompanied by the other B vitamins. I also take a green food that has B vitamins in it too.
Open Self-Injury
Treatments
- DailyStrength Working / Worked
- I love this place. It is a huge help for me. I have made wonderful friends and have had amazing support.
- Dialectical Behavioral Therapy Working / Worked
- I am in this for the long haul. Have not cut for over a month.
- Psychotherapy Working / Worked
- I have an amazing counselor that helps me deal with the stress in my life (bi-polar daughter,Caregiver for ill 80 year old father,managing my Fibro/CFS,dealing with my mothers mood disorder)She knows the most about me (beside my husband)and I truly trust her.
- Talking Working / Worked
- Makes me accountable for my actions. Also helps to vocalize the emotions instead of stuffing,a sure way to end up self harming. It also lets me know I am not alone and that I am still loved even though I do this.
Open Migraine Headaches
Migraines since I was young. Sometimes they last days. Seems my thirteen year old daughter is developing them as well.
Treatments
- Acupuncture Too Soon to Tell
- we will seee
- Avoid Certain Foods / Chemicals Working / Worked
- red wine will give me a migraine. Certain perfumes and chemicals. I will be working with a Naturopath as well.
- Caffeine Not Working
- Doesn't help or start them.
- Fioricet Not Working
- Nope
- Fiorinol Not Working
- Never worked
- Imitrex Somewhat Helpful
- Current med. Terrible side effects. will make the headache bearable but there is no driving or brain surgery happening.
- Magnesium Too Soon to Tell
- Trying it now
- Maxalt Working / Worked
- Worked well but my insurance won't cover it anymore
- Naproxen Somewhat Helpful
- Mix it with the Immitrex.
- Topamax Somewhat Helpful
- No side effects
- Zomig Not Working
- Horrible!
Open Caregivers
I care for my 80 year old father. He has emphyzema,dementia from oxygen deprevation and the begining stages of Alzhiemers.
Open Panic Attacks
I have always had terrible anxiety and was diagnosed with generalized anxiety disorder. Now though I have such severe panic attacks my heart beats over 100,I cry,I can't talk,think straight,breath,sometimes I have an asthma attack,often i cut out of desperation,sometimes I even think of killing myself.
Treatments
- Meditation Working / Worked
- TM since I was eight. It is a help
- Positive Thinking Not Working
- I used to be able to manage my anxiety this way but this a cannot
- Psychotherapy Working / Worked
- My therapist is my saviour
- Rescue Remedy Too Soon to Tell
- Seroquel Working / Worked
- doesn't help and makes me feel like I am in a haze
Open Eating Disorders
Type: AnorexiaI used to starve myself when I was a teen and all throughout my twenties. I got help and stopped it. Not that I do not battle with it still. When I feel out of control I will often restrict my eating. I will pull myself together and get back on track. The issue now is I have a dear friend living with me that is anorexic. I am having such a hard time coping. My DBT therapist says I should send her home. I cannot do that to her. She has looked forward to this time for so long. I am lost.
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