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TwilightAngel
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Why should it matter when all you want to do is push me down anyways? You never really cared so just leave me be...
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About Me
~}*FOUNDER OF UR NOT ALONE*{~ A teen who believes we were meant to luv each other and help out whenever we can... I am here to help out with anything... We must fulfill our destiny.... I am willing to do anything to find the inner peace I long for in my life... I have been through enough to know that I haven't found it yet though.... xxoxoxx
Interests
Writing (poetry, proses, short stories, ect) listening to music (variety of punk, rock, classic, country, emo, alternative), reading (Twilight Series, Mitch Album Books, Harry Potter, and more...), looking at the moon and stars, playing my flute (Almost 8 years now), being on the internet (internet addict lol), helping with whatever I can (I am here for anyone who needs me and asks for help).... xxoxoxx ~}*MY MUSIC MY SANCTUARY*{~
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Close Depression
I have been depressed on and off for the last few year, but this is the first time it has gotten this bad. Life hasn't been easy with my parents divorce and the sexual abuse either. I am known to worry about everyone in my life and want to help them and when I can't it depresses me more....
Treatments
- Meditation Working / Worked
- I like to relax while I am alone and listen to soft music.
- Prozac Somewhat Helpful
- I went to the doctor and he just started me on 20mg once a day. It's sort of helping, but I still feel depressed at times....
- Psychotherapy Too Soon to Tell
- I talked to my friends and family about things, but usually most think that I am just overreacting.
- Support from Friends & Family Somewhat Helpful
- They found out about it from my guidance counselor at school. I don't know what to do anymore.
- Writing Working / Worked
- I like to write poetry a lot and it helps for people to realize how I feel.
Close Sexual Abuse
When I was about 5 years old my uncle molested me. He never went to prison and my aunt thinks I lied about the entire thing and I was told to lie about it.
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Open Breakups & Divorce
When I was 7 my parents got a divorce. It was a nasty one cuz once my dad remarried things changed for the worse. I went to a lot of custody hearings and the friend of the court didn't do crap for me. I still had to visit when I didn't want to go up any more. It wasn't until about 3 years ago I stopped going regularly. It was hard for me and I still am sad about the entire situation. That is why I am joining this community. My ex took advantage of me. Still not doing very good with it..
Treatments
- Music Somewhat Helpful
- I always listen to music to express myself...
- Psychotherapy Not Working
- They told me what happened between me and my ex was partly my fault so it made me feel worse....
- Support from Friends & Family Working / Worked
- My family tell me all the time that I have made the right decision to stay away from... They do help me a lot....
- Talking Not Working
- I went to counseling for a while but just quit cuz it wasn't doing very much.
Open Panic Attacks
I have had panic attacks but they dont happen very often...
Open High School Stress
Lately I have been just feeling stressed out about many different things. I am tired of all the drama that is seen in the high school and I am getting to the point that I can no longer concentrate on my work that needs to get done.
Treatments
- Support from Friends & Family Somewhat Helpful
- I talk to people a lot but I can't always go to someone for help with this kind of stress.
Open Anxiety
I have had anxiety for a good part of my life. I used to be worried about things all the time and I still do today. I have had panic attacks too. Lots of different reasons too. High School drama.
Open Teen Anxiety
Between high school and trying to make my parents proud I have been through a lot. I am always worried about something and lately I have just not been able to deal with it.
Open Depression - Teen
I have been depressed, but lately it seems to be worse than ever. I have gone back to SI and not many really understand how depressed I am. I especially hate the holidays cuz I feel that everyone doesn't realize how good they have it. I have been through a lot too. I was sexually abused and my parents divorced when I was 7. Its been rough ever since.
Treatments
- Art Somewhat Helpful
- I like to draw on occasion, but it hasn't done much for me.
- Meditation Somewhat Helpful
- I have done meditation, but I haven't done very much of it. I would be interested in learning more techniques for it.
- Music Working / Worked
- I am always listening to music and I can't get enough of it. I focus as much of my energy into my flute and playing to the best of my ability.
- Pets Working / Worked
- I have had pets since I was 10 and I luv them to death!
- Prozac Too Soon to Tell
- I was prescribed 20mg a day just a little while ago....
- Support from Friends & Family Somewhat Helpful
- People keep trying to tell me to keep my head up cuz better days are on the way, but lately it seems to be harder rather than better.....
- Talking Working / Worked
- I talk to my family and my friends about this all the time. They don't understand how I feel most of the time though. Some just think I am overreacting all the time.
- Writing Working / Worked
- I like to write a lot just to keep me busy. I also write poetry.
Open Eating Disorders
I feel that I eat too much so I cut back... I know that I shouldn't but I also am always worried about something and its never good. I keep telling my friends that they have to eat, but I usually hold back myself which makes me like a hypocrite. I also think that there are people who need the food more than me so I usually only eat enough to sustain my existance......
Open Pyromania
I absolutely luv fire if there is something that I don't want I would usually burn it, but I can't cuz of where I live. I always have candles lit.... I can't go without candles in my room and I usually turn off the light so I can watch the flame dance off the walls of my room.... I don't know where this started, but ever since I saw a candle I was really into fire and I wanted to experiment with it.....
Open Insomnia
I have never had the easiest time sleeping..... I really don't know how to shut my mind off anymore.... I don't sleep all the way through the night and I am always tired... Sometimes I just can't close my eyes either....
Treatments
- Music Working / Worked
- I listen to music when I am trying to sleep... Usually it is music like instrumental, but that is it.
Open Family Issues
My family always has problems when it comes to jobs and the economy. Right now I have problems connecting with my family especially with my dad's side. There just seems to be problems all around. I always feel so helpless cuz I want to help everyone in my family, but I know I can't do that..... They tell me I have to focus on my own problems, but that's so hard to do for me.... I really can't turn off their problems for them and I wish I could help them all....
Treatments
- Music Working / Worked
- I listen to music.... It is what I believe is keeping me sane....
- Psychotherapy Too Soon to Tell
- It did help when I went and I am soon going to go back so we will see what happens....
- Talking Somewhat Helpful
- I talk to my friends and some family members about always wanting to help them, but they say that isn't something I should worry about....
- Writing Working / Worked
- I am always writing my feelings out...
Open Step Families
Both my mom and dad are remarried. My dad married about 5 years ago in June and my mom remarried just this last September. I have been coping ok with it. I don't visit my step mom and dad that often and my mom and step dad live down the road from me... Just can be hard at times since I don't see my real dad that much.... Its really hard at times, but otherwise its pretty good....
Open Codependency
I guess I set myself up for codependency.... I hate it when I can't help someone and absolutely don't know how to give anyone tough love when they need it... The last relationship I was in I was living off my bf and I just kinda dependant on him... He couldn't handle all of my problems though so he ended it on me and I was traumatized.....
Treatments
- Music Working / Worked
- I am always listening to music now days....
- Pets Working / Worked
- I have 2 cats and my mom and step dad have a dog... I love them all to pieces so it helps....
- Reading Somewhat Helpful
- I like to read a lot too...
- Talking Somewhat Helpful
- I have been talking and it helps somewhat...
- Writing Working / Worked
- I am like a writing machine... I am always writing this poetry that is always so tragically sad and I just cant help it....
Open Self-Injury
When I did it last I didn't care about anything else... Now I don't know what to think about it all.... I just don't know what makes sense anymore and I feel like I am not even living anymore....
Treatments
- Rubber Bands Not Working
- I have once before, but it doesn't do anything for me.
- Squeezing Ice Working / Worked
- Ice usually works for me unless I am trying for blood like lately.
- Talking Somewhat Helpful
- I talk to my friends that know about it. They really want me to stop and I need to, but I don't want is part of the problem.... I want to keep going. My family also knows now, but they don't understand it and neither do I anymore... I just don't want to stop...
Open Phobia
I am definately afraid of watching my friends and family suffer... I have had many dreams about this that not many know about and I continue to worry about my friends and family everyday... I just don't know what I would do if anything happened to any of my friends... I just don't know how to stop this fear... I have always wanted to help all those in need ever since the dreams have occured and would never turn anyone away if they truely needed help... I luv you all so very much... XOXOX's
Treatments
- Writing Working / Worked
- I like to write poetry a lot.... It can be quite helpful when I need it....
- Music Working / Worked
- That can usually calm me down so I try to drown out my thoughts with music.....
- Talking Working / Worked
- I talk to my friends and family and ask them about how they are doing to be sure that everyone I luv so dearly is ok.......
Open Internet Addiction
I have always been obsessed with being on the computer.... My aunt likes to call me ADCD.... I am alway on the computer whenever I can be and its usually when I am on DS.... I luv the internet..... lol.... Maybe just as much as I luv fire....... xoxoxoxoxoxoxox
Open ADHD / ADD
I was told that I was bordeline, but my parents didn't want me to be medicated.... Lately I have been having a hard time concentrating on school work.... Not many know that I am like this, but I do show signs of it every once in a while.... xoxoxoxoxox
Treatments
Open Shyness
Not too shy, but most definately introverted.... I prefer my alone time.... xoxoxoxox
Treatments
- DailyStrength Working / Worked
- I talk a lot on DS... I don't like to talk face to face very often about my feeligns, but this site has definately helped....
- Pets Working / Worked
- I have two kitties and I luv them to death...
Open Physical & Emotional Abuse
My dad sort of emotionally abuses me in the way of neglect.... He only calls when he has to and he is never there for me... My ex also has taken advantage of my emotions... I can't deal with seeing him in the hallway anymore.... I see him everyday.....
Treatments
- Forgiveness Not Working
- Leave Considering
- I want to go away sometime.... Don't know where just do.... xoxoxoxo
- Music Working / Worked
- I am always listening to music...
- Psychotherapy Working / Worked
- Talking Somewhat Helpful
- Somewhat helpfull.... xoxoxoxox
Open Family & Friends of Bipolar
My friend Kat has BPD and so does a few other of my friends on here.... I would just like to understand more about this disorder... xxoxoxx
Open Acne
Yeah I deal with it.... big deal right? xxoxoxx
Open Migraine Headaches
Not much to say... Just get them.... xxoxoxx Don't know if there's a logical answer to it.... ;)
Treatments
Open Obsessive Compulsive Disorder (OCD)
Wild thoughts, can't sit still, have to always be doing something.... I never thought about it being OCD though... xxoxoxx
Open Post-Traumatic Stress Disorder
Been through a lot... Been paranoid about a lot of different things, but never thought about having PTSD... It's just a guess right now... I am not sure if I have it or not... xxoxoxx
Treatments
- Art Working / Worked
- I like to draw sometimes...
- Music Working / Worked
- I'm always listening to music...
- Reading Working / Worked
- Reading is something I do a lot...
- Talking Working / Worked
- Always talking on DS and stuff...
- Writing Working / Worked
- I write a lot... Its something I am always doing... I enjoy it a lot...
Open Children Of Divorced Parents
My parents divorced when I was 7 yet I remember the day it happened like it was yesterday.... My dad's side of the family like disowned me or something because I hardly ever hear from them anymore... The saddest part is that I don't talk to my dad much either... I feel that is why I feel so alone in everything...
Open Loneliness
Feeling like no one understands you... Yea I'm there... There is really only a few inner people who truely understand my situation...
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