brenni85's Journal

i hate feeling depressed and alone...I know it's all in my head, but i feel like my friend is avoiding me. I came to florida to visit her and so far I've spent more time watching tv than actually hanging out with her. Granted, the first 5 days i was here she had to work, but she hasn't since saturday and I still fell like she doesn't want me to be around. Like she would rather be around the people who are normally around her than someone she hasn't seen in a year...i know most of the feelings are coming from me being depressed and just feeling sorry for myself. we spent a few hours just the 2 of us today and ever since we got back i feel like she's avoiding me, like those few hours were enough. but i'm leaving in 2 days, tomorrow night she works all night, so she's not going to want to do alot tomorrow and then thursday we won't have time b/c of her sleeping and me leaving. i'm just sooo frustrated.....i know i should talk to her, but i don't want to. I'm tired of following her around like a lost dog...