Journal Entry for April 20, 2007
So I know I haven't written in a long time. I thought if I waited long enough things might start going my way. I feel like I did at the beginning …

is feeling Horrible
Well I'm a recent college graduate from the University of Northern Colorado in Greeley, Co. This place sucks I gotta say. Its a little cow dunk town and there isn't much to do in terms of entertainment. I receieved my degree in Anthropology with an emphasis in Archaeology, not really a job market there with only a bachelors. I'm lonely, my boyfriend was just arrested and is going to probably be doing about two months. Never thought I'd end up with a "bad boy" as they put it. I love tattoos, piercings, reading, drawing, writing, anything that can take some time away from another rather dismal day.
Right now, to be completely honest my only interest is getting through this. I used to love a lot of stuff, dancing, hanging out with friends, going to the museum, the movies, adventures...now its only worry, anxiety and me trying to build strength and fortitude...I miss life when it was easy and I was a college student who could do anything!
So I know I haven't written in a long time. I thought if I waited long enough things might start going my way. I feel like I did at the beginning …
So tomorrow is supposed to be the day. If all goes as its supposed to he'll be out!!!!!!!!!!!!! I'm scared to get my hopes up because things seem …
So yesterday was the hearing...and it was actually good news. Didn't expect that. Jason's sentence was modified to 60 days jail time, which served …
Todays the day, and I'm scared shitless....we'll see
So tomorrow is is the big day. I get to go before a judge and tell her why I think that Jason's county sentence should run concurrently with his DOC …
I just figured out what this is lol
long time no hear i hope all is well stephie always smile
hey there just wanted to pop in and give you a hug hope you have a good week, stephie always smile
It sounds like you could use this!
hey girl.. hope u are doing well. so what happened? did ur boy get released? hvent heard from you in a while.
I am someone who has suffered from depression for years now. I'm currently trying to recieve counseling for the matter, but as of late the things are much more dreary. My boyfriend was recently arrested and is "supposed" to do two months. He was one of the only people I could talk to and I miss him desperately. His Parole Hearing is next week and I just pray that he'll come back to me soon. I just feel like things can't get much worse. I'd like a little ease from this horrid feeling.
I haven't been diagnosed with bipolar disorder, but I personally believe I suffer from it. I'm trying to get therapy for it right now but I currently am unemployed and don't have the resources. I get angry, then cry, then am fine within a matter of minutes. It has affected my personal life, my relationships and my desire to do the things I used to love. I'm just so tired of being sad and feeling like I'm going off the deep end so quickly.
I am a 22 year old woman with family members diagnosed with social anxiety and manic depression. Lately, I've felt very insecure in my skin and anxious about things like social situations, even conversations. I can't say I'm completely used to this, when I was a adolescent I was very open and not really shy. Lately I feel like I not only can't meet new people but I don't want to. Something I'm not used to.
Recently I have found myself afraid of things I used to be if not comfortable with, acustomed to. Things like going to concerts, meeting new people, going to bars and clubs. These are things I used to enjoy doing, now I wind them up in my head so tight that even the idea of them for me is terrifying. I don't want to meet new people because I fear making an ass of myself and now I have very few friends. This is not something I'm at all used to.