is feeling Horrible
Ive recently got a job as a nursery assistant working 43 hours a week....i love it and love spendin all that time with lil kids they always make me smile and give me a reason to get up now!!
i love going out with my friends just having a drink being able to forget whats going on. i love walking and dancing.
October 18, 2008 9:40am
Really having a bad day today, had a panic attack after gettin pains in my chest, im convinced im ill and gunna die, think all this with my brother …
October 14, 2008 2:43pm
Feel very down today, was fine at first, spent the day at my boyfriends while he was at work and i was ok then he got home and i started thinking and …
September 25, 2008 3:21pm
I cant believe what im writing but my younger brother died on saturday, its his funeral tomo n i really dont know how im coping, although we knew he …
August 17, 2008 1:27pm
Im back and so is bulimia....ive been away from here for months now i thought i was better....i got a lovely boyfriend, and life seemed to be goin …
So sorry to read your post about your brother. It is such a hard time for you. It is natural that you might return to 'coping' mechanisms like bulimia at a time like this so don't be hard on yourself, but also take care of yourself,reach out like you are doing here, and know that you don't have to slip down the bulimia road, you have alo of other options for getting through this time that are a lot healthier and better, especially in the long run. Thoughts are with you.
I am so sorry about your loss. i lost my sister when I was young. don't beat yourself up. every moment is new and a chance to make a different choice. my prayers are with you.
I'm so sorry about your brother. I don't know how to encourage you. Please know I'll be here if you want to talk. Just write, and I will do my best to come on here to see when you need some encouragement. Please know I care for you.
Everything will be okay.
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ive suffered from bulemia for as long as i can remember, it started just after my aunty died of anorexia and i started secondry school and got bullied about my weight, that was when i was 12 im 19 now and suffering with it worse than ever i binge alot and throw up after most meals, i feel so down, know one knows about it, i cant tell anyone
ive been self harming for about 6 years now, it started when i was getting bullied at schhol, only way i felt in control makes me feel better when i do it.
ive been shy for my whole life, being at school was worse id be a nervous wreck, someone would ask me a question and i would just get all confused and be unable to answer, my heart would beat faster and i would feel sick, the last year has been a bit better but i still struggle to talk to people.
Ive never been diagnosed with depression, but eversince i was 9 years old when my brother and mum got sick i have found myself stuck sometimes for months at a time in cycles of depression. I find myself crying for hours when i go to bed but im to scared to get help.
My first panic attack was when i was only 9 years old, they went away for a while but just lately ive been having them so badly and im really struggling with them.
