Wish me luck,I finally got an appointment …
Wish me luck,I finally got an appointment to see a Pain Specalist and it is next Tuesday in Lubbock,Tx. at 11:00 am.I …
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My wife went to lubbock yesterday to do some work for her old boss. That is awesome for the simple fact that he pays very, very well and it will help us financially......BUT it really sucks at the same time. It was Lubbock that she met up with that guy online. He does not live in Lubbock, and I have reason to believe that he is not there with her, but it still causes me alot of distress. I spoke with her for about 45 minutes yesterday morning while she was driving there, and it seemed like a nice conversation, ending with, "I love you's" and all of the normal stuff we say to each other when things are going right, but before she got off of the phone she said that she would call me back when she got off of work. Granted, she did call me, but it was not until like 3 hours after she got off of work and I told her to call me when she got to her hotel....I fell asleep after that because it was getting late. I noticed that she DID call me later, but it was after midnight and she did not leave a voicemail. I am told that I can believe her....that she would not be dumb enough to do something like that again....that she would be faithful, but it is so hard to trust her. AND when she does things like not call...it only fuels my suspiciousness. On top of that, noone told me that she was going to Lubbock until the DAY OF....she said it was because she did not want to freak me out. Is that how I should take it? Believe her and think she is telling the truth? She is going to be there for a week and she did not say a thing to me. I found out through her mother, and then she said she just did not want to freak me out. I dont know.....I know that if this marriage is going to have any chance of working, then I will have to let go of the past and trust her again.....I will not bring any of it up, but I feel like she is doing shit she shouldn't be......any thoughts?
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I know this is hard for you, I have been on both sides of this coin... all I can say is it takes time. As hard as it is, you have to trust that she is doing the right thing, that her intentions are pure, that she really is just trying to find herself, and that she really does love you and is not trying to hurt you. I hope this helps, and you are in my thoughts and prayers, always!
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Well I do feel that I must get my side out there..Not for the intentions to defend my actions..for I know what they are. But I am onfused..Why do you love me when I am gone? Yet you seem so confused and baffled when I am around..Its hard for anyone to know there spouse doubts you. I was honest about my actions..I even told you before they happened my emotions wee taking hold of me. I do feel less of a woman when I am with you, for the fact you have shown me through the years you are wanting somthing different..Hence (Internet date sites,kissing others etc., telling me I am not sexy) Did you honestly think I am super woman and these actions for 11 years would not phase me. The selfishness, materialism...I mean you have never gone without in this relationship..while I have always taken the back seat. I must find my idenity, otherwise I will go through this life weak in a shell. You are not a terrible person..and I do love you. But at what point is loving you, and loving myself unacceptable?
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