not sure,
July 23, 2008 4:27pm
not sure what's going on. But I think my parents have decided that maybe a Pdoc is a good idea for me.
So that's good.
Just not …
Progress
25 %
Goal End Date is Jul 31, 08 7 more days.
SearchingforSolace’s Profile
-
SearchingforSolace
is feeling Horrible
What happened? Where has my life gone? What am I standing on?
Recently: 51 discussion replies, 24 hugs received more …
About Me
I'm sixteen and going to college. I have big dreams for myself but so many things get in my way. I hear voices and have so many fears and beliefs. I am always questioning reality, and it's hard to keep things separate.
Interests
I love photography and cooking and writing anything from novels to poetry. I love to read, and I love starbucks.
-
Recent Activity
- Sorry, there is no activity in the My Activity feed.
-
Journal
-
-
I am invisible tonight
July 18, 2008 10:47pm
I went to the movies tonight with my brother, his friends and his girlfriend but I felt like I was totally invisible. Not that I need to be the …
-
mad at myself
July 17, 2008 10:14pm
I'm mad at myself for being too scared to get help, for letting myself get this far, for letting the walls close in so close.
I feel the …
-
Your experience with paying for hospital bills.
July 13, 2008 7:15pm
I want to know if that is really an option for me. Going to ER that is, since I have hit so many blocks trying to talk to my parents and tried so …
-
Time is broken. So sloooow.
July 10, 2008 1:45am
I feel like someone needs to wind time up again cause it's slowed down.
tick.................tock.................. …
-
-
Hugbook
Hug
Anytime.
-
Hug
You are not alone. I;m here if you'd like to talk.
Hug
hope your day is filled with sunshine not rain ")
Hug
at your age I felt the same way as you do. i was scared & embarrsed to get help. but then i did and i did it in secret and i had a horrible dr. then i went psychotic and it was the worse experience of my life and I have never been the same since then. this age is the hardest time to cope (my therepist says). so my advice is to take your meds, stay away from alchol & drugs, and do what makes you feel good. your parents only want the best for you, i am sure. you will figure out how to cope with this illness & it will get better. HUGS
Hug
Hope everything is cool in your world! Write me if you need anything!
-
Photos
-
-
Support Groups
Close Schizophrenia
I don't have a diagnosis, but i'm suffering from many, many of the same symptoms, looking for help on how to deal with it.
Close Gay & Lesbian Teens
I found out a month or so ago that I was a lesbian. I've accepted myself and it's helped me in life tremendiously. I told my parents, like, last month. I wanted to be honest with them, I didn't want to lie, I didn't want them to find out from anyone but me. ...they took it decently. Are in denial.
Open Eating Disorders
Off and on, I decide I dont' desurve to eat, so I quit for a few days and usually get very sick, tired, can't move, can't think. I'm fine at the moment, but i'm worried eventually i'll go back to not eating.
Treatments
- Support from Friends & Family Working / Worked
- My friends noticed I hadn't eaten lunch for three days in a row. Then they found out I hadn't eaten in three days, and told me I had to eat or they'd tell my parents.
Open High School Stress
I've been homeschooled my whole life. This semester I tried going to a small school. At first everyone was nice. Now people don't treat me equaly. They look down on me, and are constantly putting me down. Any time I have a bad day they call me an attention whore. But when they have a bad day, everyone goes running to help them like it doesn't happen every week.
Treatments
- Psychotherapy Considering
- Not sure...
- Support from Friends & Family Not Working
- Was fine for a while, but since I guess that I've been depressed mostly off and on for over a year, people think i'm not trying to change things and are tired of me. So I pretend i'm fine...
Open Homeschooling
I've been homeschooling my whole entire life. At 15, I decided I'd better get out of the house more since I'd pulled away from all my conservitive friends, and I started a small school. But it didn't work out for me so now i'm taking collage classes at the community collage.
Open College Stress
I quit highschool cause I was tired of not fitting in and playing by the rules of the state, laws dictating which classes I had to take. I wanted more freedom, so I am now going full time to the community collage as a homeschooler duel enrolled.
Open Bipolar Disorder - Teen
I don't know if I am bipolar, but the doctor said I am. He doesn't listen though so I don't think he knows enough about my situcation to make that statement about me.
Open Bipolar Disorder
My Pdoc thinks I am bipolar. I would accept the diagnosis if he didn't talk over me when I tried to tell him things, or call my dad an idiot from the dark ages, or act like he's so much better than everyone else. NEXT Doctor please.
Treatments
- Wellbutrin Working / Worked
- Pulled me out of deep depression but lately I've been having all kinds of different states. Now i'm off of it and it's just continuing.
-
Snapshot
Recently …
- 11 hugs given
- 24 hugs received
- 2 journal posts
- 4 discussion posts
- 51 discussion replies
- 1 advice reply
- 2 journal comments
