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Trying to stay encouraged...cant sleep very well anymore. Trying to stay above the low blood sugars, and trying not to be afraid to face a long night of wondering if I will drop low in the night. My stomach is sick all the time, and the dizziness is overwhelming. Determined to rest in the Lord as I wait for something to be found on my testing. Have a new endocrinologist as of yesterday--I will NEVER go back to my other one--she told me that "she didnt know what was wrong with me" and that I should go elsewhere as she didnt feel capable of dealing with me. wow..I think maybe she just deals with the easy people..lol we here at daily strength are not jsut the easy people, but I am thankful that we do have each other. It means so much to me...
This is my very first journal entry...I want to start by saying that I am looking forward to meeting you all, and I know from the responses I have received already, that this is the place to be for support and encoruagement..so I thank you!
I feel awful in general. My blood sugars are dropping low all throughout the day, and it is very hard to recover from that. I also have as of yet undiagnosed faintness and dizziness, along wqith some other symptoms, that are NOT during a low blood sugar. I literally feel like I am not quite living in the real world with all that I am going through moment by moment. I just attemtped to go to the stroe and purchase a few items, but during the 'trying on' phase, I got very shakey and faint, so I ate a glucose tab. The feeling didnt really go away, although I eventually ate another one, plus ate a cheese stick in the car on the way home. I get dizzy and faint ALL the time, but in particular when I am up and about trying to accomplish something, whether out in public, or here at home. Bending over almost always makes me feel lightheaded. Its all I am doing, just trying to get from one monute to the next. Being sick for so many years is starting to take a toll on me...I have an MRI of my brain on Monday, setting up a CT scan of my right adrenal, and also trying to make an appt w/ a nutritionist so that I can hopefully get some of this straightened out somehow. I am afraid I will gain even more weight, and I already have 40 to lose. But, that is not my primary concern..I jsut wnat to eat healthy and avoid low blood sugars. I NEER go high, only low..and oftentimes in the middle of the night.
ALl in all, I can hear how discourageed I sound, and I cant really argue with it today. I am discouraged, and I just do not know what to do next. So far, the docs havent found anything, other than this now out of control low blood sugar situation....
My daughter wants to bring two friends home from college this weekend, and I am really not sure if I can handle it. My mornings are just so bad...
Thats all for now..
-Val
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Hi Val...I know I just sent you a rather...lengthy :o( reply already. But, I hadn't read your journal entry yet when I sent it. Goll...we have a lot in common in the way of how and what we are going through. The dizzy stuff is hard isn't it? Have you had vertigo? Where things start tilting or turning. Not necessarily fast either...?? Just curious. I know..it kills me when my kids ask if so and so can come over and I just can't do it. I can't 'plan' on anything really. I never know from one day to the next how I will feel. Hour to hour can be hard really! Just know that you are not alone. I have broken down a few times..it's impossible to go through so much and not have times like that I suppose. I don't feel as well today as I did yesterday...more woozy and icky. Blek. Have you been to a cardiologist? I am glad you are having an MRI...that will put your mind at ease with lots of issues at least. Please keep us posted how you are doing with all of it!
Take care,
jdepplover65
jdepplover65