sparklyangst's Journal

my health is deteriorating again.  my vision in my right eye comes and goes in varying intensity, my muscle spasms have returned badly, the heavy weakness, muscle fatigue in my legs is so bad that i can barely stand at times.  my migraines are acting up as well.  i was feeling pretty good for awhile.  i think i need to quit my job earlier than i planned because i can't force myself to stand and attempt to put on a happy face when i'm fighting the urge to lay on the ground and space out, ignoring all around me, untill i feel strong enough to move around. 

AAHHHHH!  i'm frustrated and scared.  my mobility is  being taken away from me and i don't know what to do about it.  i suppose i'll go beg for help from a neurologist.  pay for expensive tests and visits that will probably yield nothing but more stress for me because the tests may come back normal and i'll not be believed.  just like it happened two years ago.  however, i'm losing the ability to function normally and that simply is not okay.