Fighting to live in a world that keeps fighting -a.l.madde ... Like the duality that is BP, I have my two sides to the mirror: My very serious side and then my silly side... Currently I'm planning to write someday. I'm always writing something, but would like to be published
God, music, reading, writing, praying, learning, helping others, movies, anything to do with Harry Potter :).... Helen Keller: "Although the world is full of suffering, it is also full of the overcoming of it."
July 19, 2008 9:42am
Notice I have a smiling face that is actually smiling in my title. I put quotes on death because in reality I know I ride around in a vehicle …
Diagnosed 19 years old. Relapse 2 years later. Now back on medication. doing well but having swings of depression time to time
Deep episodes of depression, first recognized even as young as 5! Then sophomore high school, where I use to listen to Tears in Heaven, crying in a closet unable to tell anyone why I was so sad, even to myself. I couldn't understand. Then realizing, after being diagnosed BP (Bipolar) that it is the nature of the beast. I keep trying to survive. And even on my good days, I'm afraid that the monster of Depression might lurk its ugly head once again.
My two childhood memories chisled what I eventually would come to realize as my uncertainty to what attracts me. I had my first same sex crush in the schoolyard sandbox (awww) then my first guy crush (realizing this after he moved 6 years later) that started in 1st grade! Lingering feelings persist in adulthood. And I remain single.
introverted by nature though have my moments when I shine, though feel like i have to apologize after for being "wild"...would like to be more natural and spontaneous with people and not too guarded; plus I think it is a comorbidity that comes with my being bipolar though i never thought so until i read about it
With my BP disorder, we are prone to addictions. Luckily, I don't drink or take drugs. Unfortunately, it seems as I start to tally expenses these last couple months I realize I could have a shopping problem! Help!
many years I thought I had social phobia now I wonder where I might fall on the autism scale. Are there varying degrees of Asperger Syndrome? I really have trouble keeping conversations and tend to talk avoiding eye contact. However there a few people I can be myself with but when I speak I find that it is centered mostly on tv or movies or electronics. In fact I am known as the gagdget girl at work. I also am focused when ur comes to drawing and writing music. But maybe I'm not
