Journal Entry for June 10, 2008
June 10, 2008 11:54am
jeannie22’s Profile
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jeannie22
is feeling Horrible
About Me
I'm 41 and a mother of 3 and a grandmother of 2 as of January 15th . I love music and listen to all types, I'm not a religious person but I do believe there is a higher power of some sort. Bringing myself to this stage in my life has been very traumatic like most people dealing with the feelings I'm going through. I hope I can feel better letting things out in this environment. I have so much more to say about me where to start? I have decided today I'm going to let myself be sick instead of beating myself up for not being healthy. I love coming here I have met nothing but caring, kind and, understanding people. I want to thank all of you have been there for me I appreciate you all.
Interests
I listen to a lot of music, and spending time with my kids and grandkids.
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hi jeannie....here is your hug. i've been out of the loop too....but i'm back. my prayers are with you :)
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Chocolate said to a lollipop, you are damn sweet. And the lollipop said : Not as sweet as the person reading this! Your smile makes me smile... Your talks make me glad.. Your company makes me happy... But your absence makes me sad... Be always with me my friend!!!
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big, bigger and biggest hugs
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Friends are like balloons; once you let them go, you can't get them back. So I'm gonna tie you to my heart so I never lose you.
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great going! it can be done 15 years and counting here. I am so proud of you!!!!!!!!
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Close Depression
I'm 41 and it has taken 7 years to diagnose me with bipolar disorder. I just want to know why I dont know why???? There is so much I need to learn and want to learn about myself and my illness.
Treatments
- Music Working / Worked
- Many songs I choose I like to listen to REALLY LOUD thats how I feel better.
- Paxil Not Working
- Made me more of a b*^#!
- Seroquel Working / Worked
- I was unsure at first because of the drowsiness but I made myself stay awake to get through it. And I do feel a change for the better.
- Support from Friends & Family Working / Worked
- My family and friends are trying to be as understanding as possible.
- Wellbutrin Not Working
- Writing Considering
- Trying to write here and on paper every day not working out so well.
- Zoloft Not Working
- never felt any change what so ever
Close Bipolar Disorder
I'm 41 and it has taken 7 years for my dr and I to figure out I have bipolar disorder. But trying to work through it. I believe now that I've recalled my past from real young I have been bp most of my life.I feel lately I've taken two steps back in my gettig healthy or even sort of healthy.
Treatments
- Seroquel Working / Worked
- Seems to be working but I still have bad manic and depressed episodes.
- Getting Angry Considering
- I think it's time I try it all!!
- Music Working / Worked
- Angry music is what pulls me through my manic state.
- Seroquel Working / Worked
- Seems to be working but I still have bad manic and depressed episodes.
- Wellbutrin Not Working
- made me feel like I was on speed.
- Zoloft Not Working
- I think I was more irritable.
Open Codependency
Been this way since I could remember,always gonna rescue "him". Or allow him to be first for everything. "But" I love him.......blah blah blah!!!
Treatments
- Music Working / Worked
- Hvaent found the right music choice for this yet.
- Music Working / Worked
- Metallica is great for many things!!
- Pets Working / Worked
- my cat keeps me most company when I need it I think she knows when I need her.
- Reading Somewhat Helpful
- Talking Working / Worked
- I always vent even to myself.
Open Meth Addiction & Recovery
Started using meth heavily when I was 21, been a user on and off since then. Have denied and lied for years to myself and family. I have always hated the way it made me feel but it was the "getting high" part that I liked. I'm also bipolar and have anxiety issues.
Open Self-Injury
I am a mother of a "cutter". I thought in order for me to help & understand I should come here.
Open Rape
I didnt think I would ever tell anyone about this,or ever thought I needed to. I was raped twice when I was 15 by 2 different "friends". When I was pregnant with my oldest daughter at 17 I was forced to have sex with my friends husband with who's house I was staying at.Feeling I had no control over this I did what he said.
Treatments
- Psychotherapy Too Soon to Tell
- Just started seeing a counselor 2 days ago I will be bringing these issues up.
- Talking Too Soon to Tell
- This is the frst time I have talked about it.
Open Adoption
I am an adult adoptee, I was put up for adotion at 18 months I dont know my history. I only know that I was born with a different middle name then I have now. I was in foster care until I was 4 I do remember a few foster homes I was in.
Treatments
- Psychotherapy Too Soon to Tell
- I just started seeing a counselor I will see where it takes me.
Open Parenting 'Tweens (9-12)
I have 3 children ages from 23,15 and my youngest 10. I've found that the between ages is the hardest with my son beause he is the only boy. His father hardly sees him so it's just me, and his sisters. My oldest has a boyfriend he does look up to, but I think he needs more.
Treatments
- Education (School) Working / Worked
- He loves school, and does very well in all subjects.
- Patience Not Working
- I know I need to have more patients with him, but it's really hard.
