Journal Entry for January 13, 2008
January 13, 2008 8:42pm
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rebelchrist
is feeling Horrible
About Me
I'm 22, from Liverpool, England. I suffer from periods of severe depression. Recently it has been suggested that this may be caused by bipolar disorder, although I'm awaiting a referral for proper diagnosis. I work on church organs for a living (tuning, building and maintaining), however this isn't what I want to do. I'm considering a career in accounting purely because I find maths easy. I don't know what I really want to do.
Interests
I like working out, but I've let myself slip to the point that I get out of breath walking up stairs. I like watching DVDs, listening to music, the internet, travelling (only the UK with work as I can't afford anything else), camping, shopping and the usual stuff.
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Journal Entry for January 13, 2008
January 13, 2008 8:29pm
It's just past 1am, which is early for me, but I'm so tired. I'm scared to fall asleep though, as I don't want the nightmares. I had …
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Journal Entry for November 7, 2007
November 7, 2007 10:19am
So I had a pretty bad week last week, but I'm feeling somewhat better now. Just kept on getting really upset about having no …
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Journal Entry for October 27, 2007
October 27, 2007 7:00pm
Sometimes I don't care about anything. This is one of those times. I should feel shit. I don't. I've just walked several miles to find a …
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big hug from Orlando FL, hope you are well, take care, Stephan
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looks like u could use a big hug
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hope you are feeling good have a great day ok!
Hi,, I saw your profile and felt for you.. I know how you feel.. I do hope that you have a good Christmas and wish you all the very best for 2008, I hope that the New Year is a good one for you. Stu x
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hello there waz up
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Close Depression
Type: Clinical (Major) DepressionI was diagnosed with this when I was a teenager and tried a lot of different medication but nothing seemed to help.
Treatments
- Celexa Not Working
- I was on this for such a brief time period that I have no idea if it would have benefited me.
- Paxil Not Working
- Jesus, this stuff made me feel far worse. I was on it for several months and it put everyone around me through hell.
- Prozac Somewhat Helpful
- I was on this for several months and seemed to level off for periods but would often nosedive back into depression. Once I came off this I came off medication for about 5 years.
- Support from Friends & Family Somewhat Helpful
- It's been good to have it out in the open and not be so ashamed to talk about it, but it's still hard and I don't think people quite know how to handle me, quite often making me feel far worse.
- Thorazine Too Soon to Tell
- Writing Somewhat Helpful
- This clears my head. I find it easier to sleep if I get the thoughts running through my head down on paper.
Close Bipolar Disorder
I have been treated for depression for several years, but it has recently been suggested that I may be bipolar. I'm awaiting a referral to find out.
Treatments
- Remeron Too Soon to Tell
- These things made me sleep properly for the first time in forever, although now I'm suffering nightmares a lot. They seem to have taken the edge of somewhat but I may just be on less of a downer than previously.
Open Self-Injury
I've been harming myself in different ways since I was 9. Started cutting when I was 15, and have taken several overdoses and given myself burns.
Treatments
- Psychotherapy Somewhat Helpful
- Had regular meetings with a child psychologist and a psychiatrist for about 3 years, I cut down a lot during this time.
- Talking Somewhat Helpful
Open Fitness Goals
Type: Be the best you can beI used to spend hours in the gym everyday, go out running and do further weight training at home. This was when I had a part time job and I had the time. Since going into full time work I've not had the time to exercise and have let myself get into a terrible state.
Treatments
- Running Working / Worked
- Slim-Fast Somewhat Helpful
- Strength Training Working / Worked
- Swimming Working / Worked
- Weight Training Working / Worked
Open Diets & Weight Maintenance
I have spent the past few years around the 11-12 stone mark. I got down to 10 stone at the beginning of this year, but over the past few months have ballooned to 14 stone 10 pounds.
Treatments
- Counting Calories Working / Worked
- Eating Healthier Foods Not Working
- Eat Less Working / Worked
- Physical Exercise Working / Worked
- Slim-Fast Working / Worked
Open Shyness
rebelchrist hasn’t entered any details for this support group.Open Gay Men's Challenges
rebelchrist hasn’t entered any details for this support group.Open Smoking Addiction & Recovery
Treatments
- Cold Turkey Not Working
- I've tried this a few times but always end up back on the fags.
- Nicotine Gum Not Working
- Foul foul stuff.
- Nicotine Patch Working / Worked
- I quit using patches first time round and stayed off the fags for a year before taking it back up.
Open Gambling Addiction & Recovery
This is something I don't think anyone knows about. I have lost thousands on gambling over the years. I get a high from winning and I start to panic when I begin to lose. This just makes me take higher risks to win the money back.
Treatments
- Distancing Working / Worked
- I've been fairly succesful in keeping it under control. I'll occassionally lose a hundred or so but considering I have had no support with this I've done quite well to keep it under check.
Open Vegetarians & Vegans
Type: Lacto-ovo vegetarianism (No meat)I've been a vegetarian since I was 16. The reason being I don't think anything should hav to die just so I can eat.
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