Journal Entry for January 14, 2008
I can't believe I'm back at school already. I missed Los Angeles, but I miss Allan now even more. It's going to be another two months …
is feeling OK
I am a music student, studying vocal performance and conducting. My boyfriend is in the navy and stationed across the country from me and I miss him every day.
I love music of all kinds, tattoos, sewing, poetry, and romantic comedies.
I can't believe I'm back at school already. I missed Los Angeles, but I miss Allan now even more. It's going to be another two months …
Being back in my home town for Christmas break is going well. I'm so glad I'm getting a chance to spend tons of time with my boyfriend. I …
I'm pretty blue right now. I'm missing my boyfriend so much. It's been over two months since I've seen him and it feels like it's …
After a long talk last night, things seem to have improved, but I can tell he's still hurt and it just makes me feel worse knowing that he is …
I did it...I told him...but it almost seems like it made things worse.
I told my boyfriend that I had relapsed into cutting myself again. He got so …
I have been dealing with self injury in one way or another for about 12 years, but I have been a cutter for the last seven. I had a recent relapse, but I'm working back towards recovery.
I was molested and raped by a neighbor who was a teenager when I was 8. It was 8 years before I told anyone.
My family is pretty splintered apart. My parents and I don't get along, and haven't since I moved out. I have four living brothers, only one I have a relationship with. One is in prison and another who is schizophrenic and I haven't seen him in about 8 years. I have yet another brother who I have never met. My dad signed away his rights to him before I was born. My parents are manipulative and controlling and were extremely physically abusive with my brothers and emotionally abusive with me.
I am a sophomore in college, currently attending Loyola Marymount University in Los Angeles CA. My hometown is near Chicago IL. My curriculum is very intense, and my social life leaves something to be desired. I also have a long distance boyfriend, which makes things even more difficult.
My very dear boyfriend is in the Navy, stationed in Pensacola Florida. I am working toward my bachelor's degree in Los Angeles California. The long distance is very hard on us. Also, my big brother is in the Army, stationed in Virginia. Some very big chunks of my heart are in the military.
I am 5'2" and weigh about 178 or so right now. I have tried to get my weight down so many times and it's really hard! I am down almost twenty pounds from my top weight and I'm hoping to lose at least another 40.
I have had panic attacks since I can remember. I have a few a week.