galed7956's Journal

I listed this entry as "RAMBLING" because that's what I usually do.  I think most of the talking and typing that I do is because I am nervous and that started after almost dying the second time.  Every time I find out that I have some kind of other problem (either physical or living wise - usually physical)  I get more nervous.  Today I had a cab driver who had to load all the groceries who couldn't figure out how to load the wheelchair.  So like the person that I am I  helped her and do my legs hurt now!!  I am lugging my weight around  besides lifting a light wheelchair and does that hurt.  Then I had to hang onto the station wagon/cab to get into it.  Boy was I hurting though.  I had the x-rays taken on the pump but haven't heard anything.  Then I went to the OBGYN'S office and ran into Dr Sam (My x-gynecologist) and she said that I couldn't seem to make the previous appointments because I was sick.  I said to her "yeah and when I could make the appointments you were on Maternity Leave."  There was a loud reaction to that one.  Everyone was laughing and were agreeing.   So I saw a Dr Hamilton today and I was lucky I went because I was due for a pap test and had to schedule an internal ultrasound because of the uterine wall cyst.  So that's how it goes.  One thing that is surprising me though is that I stopped the Birth Control Pills that I was taking for the sweating that was and I guess is still happening and I haven't gotten my time of the month yet.  I told the doctor I had better not talk too much about it because I will probably get it.  I missed it for 3 months a couple of years ago and then got it back again.  Then when that happened it was called break through bleeding so I was put on the birth control pills with the understanding that I wouldn't be on them long.  Well after I went on the pills I got the uterine wall cyst.  My mother had a total hysty and was taking estrogen which the doc said caused a cancerous colon tumor that was sucessfully removed.  Most of the members of her side of the family have a history with Cancer.  I and Dr Sam wanted that cyst removed and I went to the OBGYN Oncologist which was about 45 minutes away from home.  They didn't want to touch me and they took a sample which was ok but that was at least 2 Thanksgivings ago.  We have Oncologists in our area but none that are OBGYN's.  The place I went to where they had them also told me that they didn't want to put the morphine pump in because of my "past medical history".  That's funny because that place is the biggest hospital around my area and they are afraid to touch me.  I told Dr Hamilton about that and she agreed with me - why run down there if they are so afraid to touch me?  So if that cyst turns cancerous guess who I might be suing?  I told Dr Hamilton that I am not interested in getting anywhere near having anything Cancerous and I am not happy about the whole situation.  But I can't force anyone to do anything.  So here I sit hoping that since I had the last ultrasound maybe the thing disappeared.  Its possible  Anything is.  I have some great news!!  While typing this entry I received a call from a guy who is helping me get health insurance.  He got me into a Snypp plan so I can still get my drugs at $5.00 a pop.  I almost had to go back into secondary insurance which in ways is better but cost 205.00 a month.  I am no millonaire.  This policy I just got today cost 89.00 a month and is automatically deducted from my SS check.  I have to get in to Humana now and print out everything - all the information.  I have OA and that's how I got into this plan.  So here we go again with informing all my providers about the insurance switch.  I have to pay a deductible but that is nothing compared to paying the co-insurance and medicine costs.  That alone would have been well over 4000.00 a year.  I figure if I can stay out of the hospital until November when I can get back into a PPO plan (Freedom Blue was the best) then I will be all right.  I have a 550.00 deductible with Humana if I do go into the hospital.  If I could get my fat fanny over to the attorneys office with my papers and such I might be a millionaire (HAHA!!) if I have a good malpratice case.  So here we go again.  I have to sign off for now and take care of yourselves (anyone who reads this journal entry that is).