GinnyBean's Journal

Been away from here because I was scrambling to get a paper turned in before the deadline.  I know I know, not a good thing to do.  The worst part is, I had time to do it, but I put it off because I wasn't interested in the topic and so I left it to the last minute and well there ya go.  I always flare when I do that sort of thing too.  I know I will cause a flare, I don't want to flare, but the desire to avoid the paper for as long as possible apparently is greater.  Not smart, just the way it is.

I am trying meditation for some of the pain I have, so far I have been having a massive struggle with not focusing on the silly thoughts that pop into my head.  When I have to simply be, I find I am unable to keep my mind still.  If i had to learn something I didn't really like, well then I bet you I could keep my mind still.

I have made a promise though to give meditation a real try.  I once tried cognitive behavior therapy and well, let me put it this way, I never gave it an honest try.  I went in to it not thinking it would work, part way  through the session I knew it wouldn't work and at the end I was telling people how I had been right all along! :)