AnxietyRidden's Journal

I guess I should catch up from my last post.    The interview sounded very promising as they needed someone ASAP and was very interested in my resume.  So, I quit the new job on the first day and prepared for my interview the next morning.  The interviewer cancelled.  The job was already filled.  Now I'm back to square one with no unemployment benefits left.  I'm still not freaking out about it because what good is that going to do?  What good is going to do for me to get stressed out and then my anxiety shoots back up and then panic comes knocking again and I'd have to go through that whole process again.  So, I keep telling myself that God has a plan for me.  I'm confident in that.  Everything happens for a reason.  The reason for my panic, I feel, is to prepare me for more stressful, worse predicaments that lie ahead.  I feel like this happened so I could learn about my stress levels and how to control and keep a handle on my stressors. 

I found out a few minutes ago that my best friend made the statement to a mutual friend that "she could have my husband if she wanted to".  First of all, she's full of shit.  My husband thinks she's a nasty, diseased, whore.  So, no..she could not sleep with my husband if she wanted to.  Secondly, why would she even think like that?  I have NEVER said or thought that I could sleep with one of her boyfriends if I wanted to.  I don't see them like that.  I see them as my friend's boyfriend not as a potential hook up.  One of her boyfriends even called ME to come over but I never got pleasure or even thought about "I could have him if I wanted him".  What makes her so damn confident that she thinks she could have my man?  Well, my confidence overrules her and MY MAN WOULD NEVER HAVE HER!  Nasty whore.  Needless to say, we're not friends anymore.  Actually we stopped being "best friends" a few weeks ago after her boyfriend talked shit about me being ugly and she didn't defend me.  Yeah, he has a right to his own opinion but it shouldn't go as far as hurting someone's feelings.  She's such a controlling bitch that he is too scared to look out the window at anyone so he doesn't have any other option but to say I'm ugly.  She makes him say it.  Who wants a friend like that?  Still, I'm not stressing.  My life will be better without her in it.  Who needs that shit?  Not me.  I don't have alot of friends, but the ones I do have are true ones. 

I think they should add a smiley that says I'm feeling "PISSED OFF!"