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I am a disabled Desert Storm Veteran and have recently become a part-time volunteer art teacher at a small Catholic elementary/middle school. I am teaching K5 through 8th grade. I stress out easily so I am taking this volunteer job day by day (sometimes hour by hour). I was married twice before to two abusive husbands and had one child from each of those marriages. However, I am now happily married (over 16 years) to a wonderful husband who has never abused me in any way. He adopted my daughter, is my best friend, and the love of my life. I have two grown children (married son 30 & single daughter 21), one stepgrandson(11), and a one-year-old granddaughter (both my son's). My daughter just got diagnosed with PDD-NOS, a form of Autism. I've know that something was wrong with her all her life but it is comforting to have a good diagnosis now to work from.
Helping and being helped by DS friends and family. Teaching kids art at my elementary/ middle school. Singing (mezzo-soprano, church choir). Artist. Camping in my RV (when we can go). Computing. Yardwork (when I'm not in too much pain).
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I am taking a break from DS. Don't know when I'm coming back.…
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I am taking a break from DS…
themctier gave dkimball a Hug 3:09pm
long, slim, slimy ones; big, fat, juicy ones; itsy bitsy teeny tiny wuh-uh-uns. I've sung that song many…
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themctier gave dkimball a Hug 3:06pm
Thank you for your hug! It is so sweet of you! {{{{{{{{{{{HUGS}}}}}}}}}}}}}…
I ride an emotional roller coaster. I have a poor image of myself. In the past, I tried to take on the problems of the world but I crashed and burned. I thought that I had learned not to do that any more but it seems to haunt me forever. It bothers me that I can't reach out to others without being sucked into a deep depression over it--but I'm hanging. It especially bothers me that I can't volunteer or work anywhere without pain, depression or anxiety.
I have been diagnosed with fibromyalgia and I have several bad discs in my back from my neck on down my spine. I end up taking Hydrocodone at least once a day, sometimes twice. I stay as active as I can to keep my spirits up, but some days it is really hard.
I had a cold thyroid nodule diagnosed 2 years ago. It started growing and more nodules were found in both lobes of my thyroid, so they decided to do a total thyroidectomy (Mar 2007). The nodule had a 1.4 cm focus of papillary thyroid carcinoma. Borderline criteria for radiotherapy so the docs opted to follow me with routine bloodwork and thyroid medication. They are keeping me slightly hyperthyroid to keep any remaining thyroid tissue inactive.
I grew up in a dysfunctional family. My grandfather sexually molested me around age 12. I married 2 abusive men. Now I am happily married but I still abuse myself emotionally when I screw up. Sometimes I even physically abusive myself when things are really stressful.
I suffer from chronic anxiety, sometimes to the point of having panic attacks. The anxiety is compounded by clinical depression, fibromyalgia, and an extremely poor self-esteem. I've been this way as long as I can remember. I'm just now realizing how severe it is. In fact, I think I've become paranoid, obsessive, and somewhat psychotic because of my chronic anxiety. Life's a bummer.
I used to be a medical transcriptionist (18 years) but as the workload increased, so did my wrist pain, tingling, and numbness. My workplace had me jumping through hoops to prove that my CTS was work-related. I wasn't at a place where I could handle the stress that fighting the system entailed, so I had to quit working. If I do not type long on the computer, my CTS rarely flares up. But so much relies on computers now that I find CTS flaring more frequently.
Currently I am 194 lbs. My ideal weight is 156 lbs. Most of my weight came on within a year after thyroid surgery. I've got to get a grip on this. I'm determined to lose down to at least 170 and hopefully to 156.
I believe my daughter has Asperger Syndrome.