I journal daily. I like yoga, music, dance, nature, recycling, spirituality, reading, and my doggie (pictured). I go to 12 step meetings for recovery from marijuana addiction (MA) and alchohol (AA). I have am grateful to be sober and to realize it is a path that will help me be who I was meant to be, not be a person I settle for and feel stuck with. I am getting into Al Anon and have hope there. I am finally out of an emotionall abusive relationship I had many unsuccessful attempts to leave. I am finally working using my degree for the first time in many years and I teach. This is amazing after many years of working at a bar as a dancer.
I have some goals to get into the Al Anon program, continue to make amends and work the 12 steps, heal from abusive relationships, get organized, build some friendships, and trust God.
Loved1 replied to their discussion post Dangers of cross addiction in the Marijuana Addiction & Recovery support group 12:04am
PS I didn't write that! It is a pamphlet from MA and I copied it from http://www.marijuana-anonymous.org/detox.shtml…
Loved1 gave mess a Hug 12:02am
I'm glad you are here and hope you hang in there. You dont have to go through this anymore if you don't…
Loved1 commented on mess’s journal entry well then.. its been awhile 12:01am
I hope you are feeling better.…
Loved1 replied to their discussion post Dangers of cross addiction in the Marijuana Addiction & Recovery support group 12:00am
Mess, these days you are detoxing and using drugs and alcohol. This is not yet sobriety or recovery.…
Loved1 replied to PreppyMom’s discussion post Going for it again in the Marijuana Addiction & Recovery support group 7:32pm
Wow, and imagine, after his arrest, that could have been you - and you don't even necessarily want to…
July 25, 2008 2:33pm
My "rude" student from the other night apologized, and so did I. She was one of two who failed the class, and they were warned. …
July 24, 2008 2:40am
Spent an hour attempting to log on - Dad's computer and he's out of town so I have access, and finally logged in under Mom's …
July 22, 2008 10:14am
There was a book I was set on buying before I got together with my ex, and then changed my mind, and finally bought it this weekend. I really …
July 20, 2008 6:44pm
I am absolutely down this weekend. I try to do what I can. I try to not work. I find out starting in a week I'll do two …
July 19, 2008 9:52pm
It was really wierd, how last weekend the old close friend I visited with was very close to my ex when they were children. Small world …
I am realizing more and more what a theme this is for me, how detrimental it is, how much help I have yet to receive for it. I see how ingrained it is in my family role models. I want to learn more about this.
This is a recurring theme though now that I myself am in recovery it is confined moreso to addicts in recovery. This preoccupation with others has had quite an effect on me and I have a ways to go to get better. I cannot think of a worse time in my life than living with an active drug addict, which brought out the worst in me and took me to my bottom.
I guess I'm starting to learn what this means by starting to understand what it ISN'T. I guess I need to choose people who are healthy, and be healthy myself including being assertive and learning to have and use healthy boundaries.
I am so glad I am addressing this and I am clean and sober and in recovery and working some steps with a sponsor here and there and attending some mariuana anonymous meetings, I couldn't do it without the support and understanding I find there.
Well I came here while going through an off & on period with a boyfriend who has been emotionally and verbally abusive, he is acting better now so it's a little scary to still see him. I have had many obyfriends who were verbally, emotionally and some physically abusive. A lot of my life has been spent trying to deal with and cope with this, and heal from this. It is not an easy cycle to detach from.
I tend to isolate myself and find relationships with mates where we are also isolated. I think shyness is about being self absorbed & self conscious. For me it reflects my lack of healthy boundaries - too loose or too tight - so I tend to avoid involvement so I don't get hurt, especially tending towards familiary and choice of unsafe people.
I used to cope with marijuana and alcohol, and those presented their own very stressful problems. Now I am clean and sober and feel healthier. I realize the healthier I am in all areas, the better I deal with stress. For me this means prayer, yoga, meditation, walks, getting outside, journaling, sharing with people, being of service and getting out of myself but not to the point of codependency (tricky), getting counseling, going to support groups, eating right, avoid sugar/caffeine.
As a kid, Dad let me taste his beer, I developed a curiosity of Mom's liquor cabinet, as a young teen I drank socially to the point of vomiting, over & over, weekends, began to experiment with pot & switched from one to the other over the years, ended up working in a bar & drinking for free on the job with my marijuana constantly, never really could admit I was a problem drinker because it seemed so secondary to other things - worse drunks, the pot. Got help for pot & alchohol, clean & sober now
Still a lot of shame in this area so it is not easy to share about. Early memory in really young childhood makes me wonder how it affects me. Consentual relationships still involved me putting myself in abusive situations, repeatedly. Recovering from job/career in exotic dance industry, harmful to me in many ways. Still have uncovering of how all this affects me today, just because it's not happening anymore doesn't mean it's healed.
Primary first interest for joining DS. This breakup is off & on and quite consuming. This boyfriend is someone I guess I feel stuck or not sure how to change to end it, seem to have one foot in and one foot out. It's draining. The relationship doesn't work very well sometimes yet I am so used to dysfunctional relationships it is hard to let go of what is good, especially he being my closest friend.
I realized I qualify for this in my "off" periods with my on & off boyfriend. I was celibate for the longest I've ever been before this relationship, and it was so good for me. I realized this was a good path for me to be on when broken up. Currently it is sounding preferable to what I am in, because of the emotional pain the relationship brings to me. I could use some SLAA meetings, I've never been.
Doing better than I used to, still have a ways to go. Reading "You Can't Make Me Angry" by Dr Paul O - excellent! Former counselor told me to direct my anger, clue myself in that something needs to change. The serenity prayer really helps me define what it is I can change and what I need to accept. I find the healthier I am in every area the better I am able to handle anger. Am I sleeping regularly, eating regularly and the right foods, avoiding sugar & caffeine, keeping healthy boundaries?
Sex and love addict
Seeing need to deal with family of origin issues.
I am happy to find this group. Where do I start! Dealing with emotional issues for the most part.
I have been off and on veggie for most of my life. It seems my conviction could be stronger and my habits better in order to prepare me with options when it comes to food choices.
I realize the week before my period I tend to cry more (except when i am sugar free) and I am also more emotionally sensitive generally
