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I Am Responsible For My Feelings Mood

Wednesday, July 2, 2008

Bottom line... I'm responsible entirely for my feelings. There is no one but me making myself upset. Last night I was so proud when I wrote that damn journal entry because I was able to type it!

Today I'm not proud of that journal entry.

Today I realize that last night I let my divorce and the breakup of my marriage interfere with my emotions with my mood with my day (yet again).

I thought of deleting it but figured it was a good reminder of what I shouldn't be doing anymore which is devote any emotions over him.

I do not hate him. I do not despise him. But I do not respect him.

In 7 days this will be over.

Today I'm going to do several things that are on my to do list and get something done.

Today I'm making a personal goal to stop these emotions.

It is time.

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It is easier to allow yourself not to react to the emotions but they still well up inside. In time they diminish but only in time. Distance and that final paperwork should do wonders for you.

kinoka
Emotions are something that need to be dealt with, and too often they arise when we least expect it. I feel its better to stay in tune with them, and if you need to cry, cry. Or if you have to set a brief time table, then allow yourself to grieve for 15 minutes, then get back to the task at hand. It is not good to stuff your feelings down your throat. If we do, then more often than not, those feelings will arise, and sometimes we won't be in control, but our emotions will be.

Feel what you need to feel, go through the journey even if it's painful. This is all part of the healing process sweetie. I'm here if you need to talk. And it will get better. In life this chapter is getting ready to end, and the beauty in all is this.

You get a fresh start to write your story any way you want.

rms
We are responsible for ourselves and our feelings but we are also human...and really can't help having them. It's what we DO with them that we have a little say so over :)

I say a few drinks and an emotional journal entry 7 days before D day is completely understandable. It's emotional. It sucks. Don't be hard on yourself...your ex has been hard enough on you.

Che2