momofsplkidscom's Journal

I have such a killer headache for two days now. Nothing seems to get rid of it! I just want to sleep. All I can do is think about all that has to be done, just do feel like it today! had a meeting yesterday for my Daughter up coming tri annual. Because she turns 9 her label will change( I know you shouldn't label children but the school system does). She is currently DD which is developmentally delayed. To MR which is mentally retarted. Which she will be sever MR,only because she does not test well and the school system already knows that.That kills me that label will be with her for life!!! Since she was put on ADHD drugs my daughter has not been the same. As a mother I am so sorry that I caved and put her on them even after I stopped the first drug Risperdol she wasn't the same. She had some improvement but she lost alot of herself too. She is currently taken Abilify which is more for impulses. See some improvement but still not her self. She lost interest in her toys and is not talking. Now instead of running away she is now trying to lock us out and using our latches against us. We had problems with her wandering off whenever she felt like it. I felt pressure to put her on meds. Dr's were actually trying to go for neglect on my part and don't get me started on the school system. I feel once you start the meds,. there is no going back. Never the same again. Once used your are off to another. Dr's fail to tell you this. I found out the hard way. I failed my daughter to some extent. PLEASE anyone out ther who is in the same situation as this PLEASE start of with the lowest dose as possible. i make sure I only give her half and I let her dr know. I found out the hard way that some dr's never really understood that it is better off starting with half a dose than going to full dose right away. They go with full dose than cut in half. Don't make sense to me. Once your chil is taking full dose ther body is used to the full dose than you cut it in half your child will not benifit from it. Than off to a new meds. Maybe that meds WAS the right one for your child but you will never know that because it wasn't given the correct way for your child. this is just my observation with my child, maybe it could help another family with this heart ache! Love to all today, stay safe and if you have kids give them a HUG today!!!