NicolT's Journal

Home from work today...With MAJOR freaken cramps...OMG they are so bad...Feel sorry for me...~LOL~I need sympathy and TLC. My partner was getting sooooo annoyed with me last night, becaue I could not stop complaining...I have never had cramps like this b4...Ohhhhh this sucks...Still, I am greatful that I have a job that I can call out from, a partner who can "get over it," DS & NS to express myself to  and  cats who comfort me and a TV to humm away the minutes...LOL--I'm such a jerk~LOL~ Just needed to write this morning to get out of my head...

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Peace,

Nicol

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PS Things seem to be coming together related to my finances...After going to CCCS-and figuring out a budget and  a repayment plan that are both realistic...I can see some light...Not being able to make ends meat was really messing with me...And today God has lifted the stuggle and Laura is stepping up...YEA!!!

Well, I went thru the interview with CCS and we worked out a repayment plan and a budget that really looks like it is going to work. Laura is going to start to pay half of the utilities again and half of the monthly amount that needs to be paid to CCS. When it is all looked at she "spent a little under $11,000 at me." It was hard to swallow when it was in black & white like that and what made it even more diffiult was that I had to take the "emotional" hit alone--- like I was the one had gotten myself into that sort of debt. I am so not an irresponsible person...Soooo it was hard...Yet, going and asking for help before my credit score became "zero" and our relationship crashed and burned was what I needed to do...I feel such relief and truly believe that I/we can put that all behind me/us. Love is stronger than resentment in the end...

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Prayers for Peace,

Nicol

Boy oh boy the busy weekend is kicking my but now...I am achy from head to toe and I just want to curl up and SLEEP!! I also feel a bit on edge about my phone appt with CCS (consumer credit counseling) tomorrow morning. I have had to block out 75 minutes at work where I can't be interupted on the phone...I was going to do it at home...But my co-worker is out on vacation and I could not call out or late...I am frustrated because I am going to counseling for issues that I did not create and am taking responsibility for money/credit that I did not want or use...It is just a crazy circle...Not complaining...Just put a hole in my head to make room for the day...I just really want to get my finances in order so that I don't have to worry about them...

Peace,

Nicol

PS I have been true to my food plan for 2 full days and I am optimistic about today too...

PSS The apt really feels like a home now!!!