Journal Entry for July 28, 2008
July 28, 2008 3:54am
Things are not good. I'm supposed to go on a trip to Turkey today. Last night there was a huge terrorist attack there. More attacks …
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Back in Canada!!! Gosh, that was a heck of a trip. I'll remembember it for a long time to come.
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About Me
I study in college , I'm 22. What can I say about my philosophy , I believe in treating everyone equally, with compassion and understanding. Most of my views are quite liberal. My passion is languages. I speak around 14 and want to learn more. Unfortunately I suffer from axniety and a certain level of depression. I absolutely love meeting other people who suffer from the same problems cause I find my symptoms quite isolating. Most people don't understand how I feel.
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I'm keeping my fingers crossed for you dear. I know it's stressful but you're not alone, me and other…
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You don't look awful at all Beka. Don't be hard on yourself, you're cute!…
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heyy soz aint replied streight away im off to college tomorow and i have now joined the gym i still feeling a bit shitty but hopefuly things will get better glad you enjoyed your trip im so jelous cant wait till i can go and travel xxxx
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Aww what a sweet message hug! thank you so must filip :] that really made me smile. I hope you are feeling better today sweetie. Take care darling. Am here for you! x x x x
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Thank you! and no worries sweetie :) just hope you're well and okay. Big hugs too you! xxxxxxxxxx
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okay darling, im feeling good at the moment today though :) hope you feel good! x x x
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thanks for being such a great friend filip! :] x x x
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Close Family & Friends of Cancer Patients
My grandfather died of stomach cancer last summer. We didn't get along but it still effected me very much resulting in a severe major deppressive episode.
Close ADHD / ADD
I have problems focusing and I'm hyper , I don't know if it's classic ADHD or if it's caused by anxiety or both. Annyways it's such a frikin drag , I hate having this problem , everyone thinks it's my fault I can't focus while I'd do everything to be able to.
Treatments
- Dexedrine Working / Worked
- Worked but made feel really anxious and paranoied. I had to get off in the withdrawal resulted in a very severe deppressive episode.
Open Obsessive Compulsive Disorder (OCD)
I sometimes get classic obsessive thoughts but I mainly struggle with quite an atypical form of OCD. I worry eccessively about a number of issues and when it gets out of control I can't stop thinking about these things (hence the term obsessive) and it consumes a lot of my energy and causes a lot of frustration. It's aslso extremely hard not being understood by others.
Treatments
- Cognitive Behavioral Therapy Not Working
- The therapist was very inexperienced and simply kept convicing me to stop obsessing. The nature of obsessive thoughts is that you can't stop them. That's why it didn't make sense.
- Luvox Not Working
- It helps with severe depressive episodes but not with the obsessions.
Open Shyness
I get really tense in social situations , especially in unfamiliar ones involving young people (sorry I must admit it , young people tend to be way more judemental). In those unfamiliar or potentially harmful situations I feel like I'm frozen. I stutter , it's hard for me to make good eye contact and my voice can get a bit shaky. I also get really tired and sleepy or get a headache afterwords.
Treatments
- DailyStrength Working / Worked
- Getting support from understanding people can make a huge difference. In this case it won't take the problem away but it helps deal with the stress.
- Psychotherapy Not Working
- The therapist was very inexperienced and din't know much about all these problems.
- Self-esteem Not Working
- No matter how many times I "tell myself" that I am smart , interesteing and stuff , I still get tense and insecure in those social situations.
Open Depression
I think I can say a suffer from dysthymia which is a mild but chronic type of depression. I also had a few episodes of extremely severe depression that lasted from a few days to a few weeks , but they were so intense they seemed like centuries. I think my mild depression is very much connected to my anxiety. I feel frustrated about being anxious and that effects my daily mood.
Treatments
- Cognitive Behavioral Therapy Considering
- I tried it before , the therapist was very inexperienced and didn't help at all but I want to try again
- Positive Thinking Somewhat Helpful
- It helps a very tiny bit when my mood is just a bit low. When the depression gets more intense it definitely does not work.
- Psychotherapy Considering
- As I said , I tried it before and it didn't wokr but I want to try again.
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