stbefm's Journal

This is my first ever attempt at posting an online journal.  It is currently being made more difficult by me getting up every five seconds to calm my crying 6 week old.  I shouldn't complain too much, she is such a good baby and her 19 month old brother is asleep at the moment.  My seconds of peace may be brief, but I do enjoy them so very much.

I am dealing, or attempting to deal with a great many things in my life at pesent.  I was overweight before I had both of my kids, and I feel that now is the time to get myself sorted out for the sake of my wonderful family.  I don't think this will be an easy journey, I'll be back at work at the end of this month.  But I have a very loving and supportive husband, who is a little portly himself, so I really owe it to everyone, including myself to pull myself together.

I never ceases to amaze me that people like myself who have reasonable intelligence and little tragedy in their lives let themselves drift so far from who and what they are that they can't see their true selves anymore.  I am definately guilty of this.  I look in the mirror and don't quite know who I am anymore.  I feel like such an idiot for allowing this to happen.