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Friday, November 2, 2007

For some reason today, I'm down. I don't know what it is, but I'm tired of being depressed and sad and lonely. I know I'm afraid. Afraid of being 'happy'. I'm not afraid of life, cause no matter how bad things are, life does go on and it never stops. I'm so fed up with 'bad' things happening to me that I wish something 'good' would start happening and never stop. Life has it's up and downs, and I'm sick and tired of the downs! I have to find a way to get through the holidays and birthdays and it'll be rough. How do I get rid of this damn mask and just be me?

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I think the only way to be rid of the mask and just be you, is for you take it off and decide that people just have to deal with the way you really feel. I am so sorry that you are feeling so down, but I know just how you feel. Heather's birthday is the 17th, and I am dreading it. I don't know how to get through it. If I did believe me I would share the secret with you. I have felt like all that happens to me is bad too, so one day I sat down and I thought about it. I thought about what good has happened in my life, and wrote them down. I was surprised when I was done there were actually quite a few good things there. I just was missing them cause I am so overwhelmed in grief. We all are, and then we begin to miss the good things. You know I am always here if you want to talk. Hope that you feel better. Lots of hugs and love my friend.
candice

candiceS
So sorry you are feeling down my friend! This time of year can be very depressing as well as overwhelming. Just try to take one day at a time. By not looking to far ahead it makes it easier to cope day by day one foot in front of the next. Your a great person, just believe in you and good things will happen. Unfortunately life is cyclical and you are in a valley...but as you said life goes on and that means the sun will shine again!!!! ((hugs))marcia

bizemomm
I LIVE DAY BY DAY....NOTHING MORE....NOTHING LESS

DianaLynn
Hi, life has dealt me so many different hands over the years. I believe everything happens for a reason. It does seem that the rollarcoaster ride of life has more downs than ups. But, it does make us a stronger person for it. It doesn't seem fair, and does get very frustrating. I also tend to take one day at a time. Making all the bad days as good as possible. While making the good days great. But, what you have been through. God, Cassie, and everybody else wants you to keep going the best you can. Everyday trying to put a smile on your face. Or at least smile through anything. I want to wish you all the best my friend. You are all in my thoughts, words, and prayers. Mike

myherokelly
I understand how you feel. Hang in there!

ladyj3
Wearing our dang masks takes a lot of energy and some times ya just got to take it off and let yourself "feel" and "be". If others can't accept it...oh, well. It's important for us to take care of ourselves, to rejuvenate and the only way of doing that is to just let it out. We're here for you....no mask needed. *Hug* Adrianne

JerryJsMom
I'm not sure how to get rid of the mask. I wear one too, everyday. It's tough this time of year for people like us who get down. Hang in there, Spring's coming!

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