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Journal Entry for October 19, 2007 Mood

Friday, October 19, 2007

TODAY IS A VERY ROUGH DAY FOR SOME REASON. I WENT TO SEE MY CHRIOPRATOR AND I TALKED WITH HIS SECRETARY AND I BROKE DOWN CRYING. I DIDN'T THINK I WOULD STOP CRYING. BUT I DID FEEL BETTER. I TOLD THE SECRETARY THAT I AM SO SICK AND TIRED OF WEARING THE 'MASK' AND HIDING BEHIND IT. I'M TIRED OF THE NEGATIVE COMMENTS I HEAR FROM OTHERS WHEN ALL I NEED IS POSITIVE WORDS! PEOPLE MAKE ME SO MAD WHEN I ASK FOR A SIMPLE HUG OR A SHOULDER TO CRY ON. SOMETIMES, THAT IS ALL I NEED. I NEED SOMEONE TO CARRY ME FOR AWHILE AND TO BE STRONG FOR ME. WHY DON'T OTHER'S UNDERSTAND THAT? KIND WORDS AND A SIMPLE HUG IS ALL I NEED SOMETIMES.

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I totally understand. It is still so difficult for me to tell anyone about my son. I usually end up crying uncontrollably. I wear a mask also and it is taking it's toll on me to keep everything in so I don't upset other people. I finally came up with the right answer when people ask me how I am doing.
I just say, "how would you be doing if it were you"? That usually puts things into perspective and I always get a better and more sympathetic response.
Barbara

BarbaraBBM
I think people just don't realize that that's all we need. They are just so lost for what the right thing to say is, or afraid of saying the wrong thing or doing the wrong thing. They don't know how little we really want from them such as an ear or a shoulder. I have tried to tell people this, but they don't get it. And unless they experience it they never will. And God knows I don't wish something this horrible on anyone. Maybe, you should try and tell your friends or support network that all you want is a should to lean on or a listening ear. Maybe then they can help more.
candice

candiceS
tears a salve to our wound silience is salt. If only people would realize we need to talk about our children. We want them to be remembered. We need hugs more then words we need them to come along side of us in our grief but how do we tell them so that they get it. You are in my thoughts and prayers.

In faith, hope and love. Pam

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