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Journal Entry for September 28, 2008 Mood
Sunday, September 28, 2008 | A General Update story
Well, I am doing fine.  Things are back in perspective.  I do think I need to take my meds regularly.
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  1. BigDog1

    I think you maybe onto something there Sherlock!!


    BigDog1

  2. erikwithak

    Well I am glad you are taking your meds regularly and everything is going well for you.


    erikwithak

  3. L8bloomer

    Yea for FINE! Have a GREAT week!


    L8bloomer

  4. Les39

    yes, take them regularly whatever kind they are.. it's important.
    I'm glad to hear you are doing fine.


    Les39

Crashing a little Mood
Tuesday, September 23, 2008 | A Venting story

Not sure how I am feeling tonight.  I had my review today.  It wasn't bad, and I knew the overall rating was going to be the middle rating (basically it is does not meet standards, meets standards, or exceeds standards).  It wasn't so much the rating, which is what I expected because my boss doesn't give exceeds standards from what I can tell.  I guess that I just left the discussion feeling demotivated.  I felt like I was told I was too slow and didn't have high enough standards and I needed to be tougher with my employees and I need to have more self confidence.  I've heard the self confidence thing before, and, duh, yeah.  It's just that I will need to watch what I say more, and I will feel like a fake.  I guess it would have been nice to have a few atta boys, because I felt like I was doing better than expected for a new employee (and the rating didn't have to say that, but some of the comments could have pointed some positive things out.)

 

Anyway, I am going to need to take my meds more regularly.  Right now a lot of things are bringing me down. . .my weight, the way I look, my cluttered home, the economy, and I don't know what I am going to do.

 

I guess I still think taking this job was the right thing to do, and I did babble on about that to my boss.  I'm going to learn all I can, and I knew that the job had its issues and they are not as bad as what I expected.  I don't know.  I think maybe I am just not very competent at anything.

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  1. BigDog1

    Try to think of this as a learning experience. It's possible they're trying to keep you motivated and on your toes. Some bosses feel like if they give a review that's too favorable that people get lazy and too comfortable and they sometimes stop trying. Make up your mind to show them you're better than they think you are. Show them that they haven't seen everything you have to offer yet. Show them that you're not going to let this review get you down. Most of all....show yourself these things too! "I think maybe I am just not that competent at anything." WTF are you talking about? Would you allow someone else to say that about you? I don't think so...you'd probably tell them to go to hell like the smart-ass i know you are!! So why do you allow yourself to talk like that? Okay....so you're worried about your weight, the way you look, your house, the economy...I say: "WELCOME TO THE CLUB!" We all have at least one of those same worries, most of us have them all. Shit! The GD economy is effecting the whole world! Come on now, you can do better than this. You got a brand new job that's made your life better and you need to keep it! You need to go in there and finish out the week with confidence and determination to show them that you can deliver and EXCEED all their STANDARDS! (This has been a little bit of tough love from your friend in Ohio! You know...the one you've been ignoring lately! WTF is that by the way?) HUGS!


    BigDog1

  2. Les39

    Please don't let anyone in this world tell you your value or worth. No one has that ability or right to do that.
    I do empathize.. seems like I always got middle-type ratings before. Lately I've been doing somewhat better but I need to listen to my own advice (not let anyone make me think I'm 'sub-standard'). I know how much worth I am in God's eyes, truly. It says so in His word. Mankind can do NOTHING to you Mark. It doesn't matter how much ability you have even. You are a wonderful creation and you're a blessing on here (as well as to your other relationships.)

    Don't let it get to you, seriously. It means nothing in the long scheme of things. And, especially it means nothing eternally..
    God loves you how you are and despite your 'weaknesses' He loves you like no other person will love you.


    Les39

Hello Mood
Saturday, September 20, 2008 | A General Update story
It's the weekend, and it will be a good one.  Love you all.
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  1. BigDog1

    You must have had a good weekend. You were nowhere to be found around here. Hope the upcoming week is a good one for you too! HUG


    BigDog1

  2. L8bloomer

    Here's to good weekends...Now take of your shirt!


    L8bloomer

  3. evan173

    How do you know it isn't already off?


    evan173

  4. Les39

    hope you had a good one, man.


    Les39

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