Eden84's Journal

Happy birthday Mother

You brought me into this world

You layed my head on pillows at night

You clothed and bathed and fed me

Happy birthday Mother

I sit with you on the porch

24 years in the making

Im as broken as the day I was born

Happy birthday Mother

You've met me before

All the years you spent loving me

With the weight of the world on your shoulders

Happy birthday Mother

Here are my scars

Here is my tongue that speaks the truth

The secrets that kept me at arms length

But wrapped to your waist all these years

Happy birthday Mother

I know the truth scares you

The reality scared me too

Such a young girl with so much inside her

Such a young girl with so much taken away

Happy birthday Mother

I know you never forgot me

I just got lost in the shadow of my brother

And while he caused his torment

I lived through torment caused unto me

Happy birthday Mother

I know the truth hurts you to know

And I wish it had never happened too

But here is a gift you've never recieved

The first of its kind

A true first for me

Happy birthday Mother

Though your gift is wrapped in blood

And torn with pain

And stamped with scars

Your gift this year

Is me.

Happy birthday Mother

Please, don't cry

The truths that forced me to this dark place

Are my truths

And for the first time

I share them with you

I share me, with you.

Happy birthday Mother

I love you.