Journal Entry for July 1, 2008
July 1, 2008 9:45am
Do things ever get better???? I really don't think they ever will. Im so sick of the same shit everyday!
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Eden84’s Profile
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About Me
I am artistic, love animals and goth/rock music and tattoos. I am yet to discover what I want out of life, but i know i haven't seen enough of the world to decide that just now. I want to experience as much as I possibly can while I am able to do so.
Interests
I love anything creative. I do graphic design (see below!) and write music. I want to be tattoo artist cause i feel it would allow me an accepting surrounding and the freedom to create something new and lasting everyday
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July 12
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Eden84 gave BeautyforAshes a Hug 7:17am
Thankyou. I needed that. :)…
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Eden84 turned 24 12:00am
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A letter from a breaking heart...
June 13, 2008 8:44am
I wrote this letter, but I haven't sent it yet. I'm not sure if I will ever get the courage to send it. But at least here I can confide in …
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Journal Entry for June 3, 2008
June 3, 2008 12:12pm
These are the lyrics to a song I wrote today... It's a song about some people I used to know, and some people I guess I used to …
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Journal Entry for May 21, 2008
May 21, 2008 7:43am
I sleep till after noon
And shield myself from the days rise
My skin has become the pailest of white
Like the colour of dying
I listen briefly to …
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Journal Entry for May 17, 2008
May 17, 2008 9:45am
Happy birthday Mother
You brought me into this world
You layed my head on pillows at night
You clothed and bathed and fed me
Happy birthday Mother
I …
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Support Groups
Close Rheumatoid Arthritis
I suffer from Undifferentiated Connective Tissue Disease. I am 23 and I have constant arthritic pain that makes it difficult to function. People don't understand that someone my age can have arthritis (one of the many ctd branches i suffer from) and tend to treat me like a hypocondriact. I am here to find support and listen to the stories of others and maybe even find some sort of solace.
Treatments
- Celebrex Not Working
- Didn't help.
- Methotrexate Not Working
- Made me sicker and dropped my immune system as a result of my other CTD symptoms
- Plaquenil Not Working
- Didn't work either.
Close Depression
Type: Clinical (Major) DepressionAs a result of suffering from Undifferentiated Connective Tissue Disease which makes it difficult for me to function in 'normal' society, i have suffered from depression my of my life, since my early teens. I also grew up with an abusive older brother and a variety of abusive partners. As a result, i am trying now to take control of my life, and this site was recomended to me as a way to do that.
Treatments
- Meditation Not Working
- The more I sink into my own mind, the worse it gets
- Positive Thinking Somewhat Helpful
- Depends on the day really.
- Psychotherapy Too Soon to Tell
- Support from Friends & Family Not Working
- Hard for them to understand.
- Writing Working / Worked
- I write songs and music, poetry scripts and short stories. I find it a good way to get the darkness out of my head.
- Zoloft Somewhat Helpful
- Seems to be going well
Open Fibromyalgia
I developed/we discovered i suffer from fibromyalgia after being diagnosed with CTD at age 19. We discovered my chronic pain and illness from the age of 8 had been these problems all along, and not hypocondria which i had so often been accused of. I dont completely understand the disorder, and find it difficult to deal with.
Treatments
- Acupuncture Somewhat Helpful
- worked, then stopped working. was recomended to take time off between treatments
- Heat Working / Worked
- i find heat very helpful, i now sleep with an electric blanket, even in summer, when the pain is too bad
- Oxycodone Not Working
- Although the drug itself did help and worked well, I developed an addiction and so stopped taking the drug. You need to be very careful with substances like these, and ensure you completely understand everything about them - which i didn't.
Open Bisexuality
I find it hard to talk about my sexuality, as I so often am or feel judged.
Open Healthy Sex
I need to learn to enjoy sex in a healthy way, and stop allowing men to use and ridicule me
Open Eating Disorders
I suffer from a variety of eating disorders, from bulemia and annorexia to overeating. I punish myself by either eating or starving, and i self induce vomitting as an unhealthy form of stress relief. Weight is something I have stuggled with for years and am still to control my urges of self destruction
Treatments
- Zoloft Somewhat Helpful
Open Self-Injury
still a problem i deal with. Cutting, scraping, punching the walls, anything to make the pain in my heart pain on my flesh, to make it real and visual.
Open Anxiety
I hate having panic attacks in public, and I find days when I sincerely cant face the world outside my room.
Treatments
- Breathwork Working / Worked
- Valium Working / Worked
- Zoloft Working / Worked
Open Polycystic Ovarian Syndrome (PCOS)
I have recently been diagnosed, and with my CTD, my body built a wall of connective tissue around the problem, which just makes it harder to beat and more painful.
Treatments
- Oral Contraceptives Not Working
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