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Monday, March 24, 2008

well this past month has been very blurry but very good.

i havent actually cut in 18 days, and i havent even thought about it either.

its amazing.

but now. my stepmum and dad have split up after 12 years of marriage, and 3 years of being together prior to that.

i feel like i have just had a tonne boulder dropped onto my shoulders, and im trying to resist the temptation to cut so bloody much!

im a bit in a daze about whats happened between them, because everything seemed fine. i mean i know it hit my dad hard when i moved out but i didnt realise it affected him this much.

he went to australia to work for 3 months, and when he got back he just basically went to my stepmum "its not going to work anymore, ive changed too much and i cant cope with our relationship"

and she reckons their relationship was fine.

i just dont understand this at all.

its actually baffled me completely.

lets just hope i stay strong.

and btw.

ITS SNOWING!!!!! at the end of march, it is snowing. we dont get snow in the winter so i dont know what its doing here now!

im off now. little rant over.

UPDATED GOALS

Stop cutting.

Progress 15%

how long without cutting (days)

Encouragements: 8

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Hiyaaa...x
my mum and her boyfriend have just split up they were onli 2gethaa for 5 years i no its not alot compared to ures but it still affects me. if you go and cut your self it dosent work believe me bin there dun that. i am not sayiin i dont cut no more becuz i do but think would your uncle want you doing this to ure self. this mite sound a bit harsh but you have too stop eiin so self centered becuz ya not just hurtiin ya self your hurting every1 hu loves you. take care x

Shellbie
sometimes when parents split up it is just the difference between each other andi do not want you to blame yourself at all about them breaking up iam in the end things will work they may be the same as they were before but you will adjust it just takes time

bratpack
It is sooo hard to see your parents split up. The length of time that they were together was quiet long. Even if she is not your biological mom, it still would be hard. Cutting is never the answer. Talking to friends is. So also can be writing about how you feel. Me.... I often write poetry, to help me deal with how I feel. If you ever feel so inclined to join, we have a poetry group going on the depression site. Ask me if you are interested, and I will ask the founder if she could invite you in.

HUGS! Linda aka Testycatlady

Testycatlady
Thanks linda, i wrote a few songs to get it out of my system and its helping at the minute.
i used to live with them so she was my mum for many years and i still call her mum.
and i dont really write poetry so its a bit useless for me but thanks :)

stackee
hey, I'm so sorry that this has happened! Just keep expressing yourself and turn to others when you feel you need some ears to listen. I hope you keep strong huni! x

redteardrops
im so sorry this is happening hunn.
i dont really know what to say because i havent been through this, but i just want you to know that you can always turn to me.

stay strong like you have been. im proud of you for resisting the urge to cut.

invertedandunhinged
**Hugs** I am so sorry that your dad and stepmom have broken up. Please dont blame it on yourself. I am here for you if you want to talk. Stay strong and safe...resist the temptation of cutting. Love and Hugs LMW xxxx

littlemisswhoops
thankyou everyone.

stackee
maybe hes confused once my mom and dad split my dad realized he was wrong and wanted her back.

hardlovingher
I'm sorry that you feel this way. But it was never your fault it was their choice to continue on with their lives.

Kikyo
harloving her, yeah i guess but my dads real stubbon, even if he wanted to he wouldnt get back with her out of pride.
and kikyo, thanks but even my stepmum blames me im sure. just how she was speaking.

stackee
Im sooo sorry about your parents hun. I know how much that can hurt. Mine went thought it when i was only 8. The curcumstances were a bit different but it can stil be hella hard. 18 days is amazing by the way. Congrats! Stay strong. Oh and im alwasy here if you ever wanna talk.

iwillliveagain
thanks a lot :)

stackee