princess123's Journal

hi..all its me Destiny..I have been feeling really down the last few days..every time something good happens(like finally fixing my car) I go back to feeling depressed..and not deserving of good things to happen to me..and my job at Target is great...and my kitty kat sunshine is always there for me..and yet I feel empty inside, not in touch with myself..wishing I had a family to be there for me..(a normal one that is) I am tired of being depressed..and sick of my stupid emotions that get me down..its like a cycle of hurt feelings all the time..childhood abuse is awful..it damaged me for life...I can remember a time when I used to be happy for a few days..that is about it..and that felt great...like when I recently cleaned my apartment, I felt pretty good..but it all stems from not feeling valued..as a person for who you are not for what you do for others..I just feel worthless today..and that I don't matter to anyone..I hope my ds friends leave some comments for me or hugs..if not its okay I know yall are busy in your lives..lots of hugs!!!!!!!!!!

Destiny