Day One
July 1, 2008 5:48am
Today is going to be my new beginning. My deppressive moods are getting out of control again. I think my increasing weight has got something to do …
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fallenprincess
is feeling Horrible
.....is feeling like I'm falling into a deep, dark hole!
Recently: 4 hugs given, 3 discussion replies more …
About Me
I'm a single mum. I was diagnosed with Depression and Anxiety over 14 years ago but I was very depressed as a child. I have battled with alcoholism for over 10 years and decided to find my way without it since March 2007. I don't make friends easily so I spend most of my time alone. I was making some half hearted attempt in restoring my classic car but my depression caused a 'loss of interest' and has halted this project. .
Interests
Rock/Indie Music, Classic Cars, Road Rallies, Computers, Drawing, Reading and my Doggies.
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Hi chick! I'm doing fine. I hope that you are ok and can find some peace. I'm here if you want to talk. Take care.
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I am sorry you are feeling bad. I see from your profile that you have been sober for almost 18 months...good job! I read your post. I know there alot of really nice people here on DS. Please try not to be offended by ideas that are not the same as yours. I think you are a good person, who is just lonely and afraid that people won't accept you and that is the ONLY thing that I see that may be holding you back from some beautiful friendships. Courage is not the lack of fear...Courage is doing something in spite of fear. Give it a try! Please let us get to know you. Hugs Ree
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Hi there - I hope you're weekend is good. Take care x
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Hello dear! How are you? Big hugs to you! David
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Glad you like it xxx
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Support Groups
Close Depression
Type: Clinical (Major) DepressionI was first diagnosed with depression 14 years ago but I was suffering with depression as early on as 5 years old. Over the years I've tried alsorts of ways to make me like everyone else but I have come to the conclusion that this is my life, the cards I was dealt, and for some unexplainable reason I just have to carry on. I'm feeling so depressed right now, I can't deal with rejection. It was so much more better when I was numb to the everything around me, I hate knowing I'm alive.
Treatments
- Celexa Somewhat Helpful
- Had more ups and down with this one, didn't manage to even out my mood.
- Dosulepin Somewhat Helpful
- Sleeping better makes my days better, feel more awake and inquisitive.
- Lexapro Not Working
- It made no difference if I took It or not
- Lithium Working / Worked
- the only time I ever felt well enough to organize my life, so as per usual, because i was doing well, my doc stopped it.
- Prozac Not Working
- It made no difference if I took It or not
- Psychotherapy Somewhat Helpful
- Support from Friends & Family Not Working
- mum thinks if 'i pull myself together' i'll be fine
- Writing Somewhat Helpful
Close Anxiety
Treatments
- Acupuncture Somewhat Helpful
- It was a long time ago, but I remember it being amazingly peaceful, and I'm scared of needles.
- Mellaril Working / Worked
- Valium Working / Worked
- Yes, it works, stops me from thinking about the situation I'm entering into. So I don't get as anxious.
Open Self-Injury
fallenprincess hasn’t entered any details for this support group.Open Alcoholism
I'm a recovering alcoholic, haven't drank since 11th March 2007.
Treatments
- 12 Step Program Not Working
- I was conned into thinking I was doing the 12 steps with the help of a male online sponsor. Just a conversation with this man was enough to make a 20 year sober person start drinking again. He caused me so much unnecessary stress, will NEVER attempt the 12 steps again.
- AA Meetings Not Working
- Aaaaaggggghhhhhh Never again, hated every minute. Not very helpful, could make the happiest person in the world suicidal. The AA is a brainwashed set of people who will grind you down till you are so exhausted you can't think for yourself anymore.
- Campral Working / Worked
- Dunno if it works, but I'm still taking it.
- Willpower Working / Worked
- My sobriety is down to plain all willpower and believing in myself. I'm determined that no matter what members of the AA have said to me about failing because I'm not doing it their way, I WILL prove them wrong!
Open Diets & Weight Maintenance
Need to lose weight and keep at a maintained weight instead of a yo-yo weight. I was seriously underweight as a young child right up into adulthood, refusing to eat because I didn't like food. Over the last 10 years I have turned the total opposite and am now seriously overweight and its a constant battle to get my weight back down to what I class as acceptable.
Treatments
- Counting Calories Not Working
- Became totally obsessed with counting calories, more so than eating properly
- Eating Healthier Foods Not Working
- I don't eat dairy produce, meat or wheat. I try to eat more fruit and veggies but I'm still piling on weight.
- Eat Less Not Working
- I go through periods of eating less, but then leas to periods of binge eating.
- Physical Exercise Working / Worked
- I love the gym, but can't get there anymore as I can't go alone.
- Slim-Fast Somewhat Helpful
- Weight Watchers Not Working
- Martial Arts Working / Worked
- Only vigorous exercise has helped me lose weight. There is no suitable Karate clubs in my area so I couldnt continue. I cant go cycling alone so I have to relay on other people to have time which never happens.
Open Fitness Goals
Type: Compete in a raceI am doing an 11 mile cycle ride for charity with the Rally Club, I really need to get fit, I have till 4/6/08
Treatments
- Aerobics Not Working
- I hated being in a room full of people.
- Climbing Working / Worked
- One thing I totally loved, but no opportunity to do it now. Can't go on my own
- Martial Arts Working / Worked
- Loved it, but no clubs here that I can attend. Can't go on my own
- Slim-Fast Not Working
- I'm lactose intolerant. Not a pretty sight.
- Swimming Working / Worked
- In the past, but I can't go alone but don't want anyone to see me in a swim costume either.
- Weight Watchers Not Working
- I couldn't cope with the patronizing women who run these group, didn't like it when my weight loss or gain was announced to strangers.
Open Single Parenting
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