keepsmiling’s Profile

About Me

Anxiety sufferer who comes across as so normal and calm on the outside, but so often squirming in agony on the inside. Hearing impaired in both ears, which only further aggravates the anxiety. I wear hearing aids, but even with them things never sound clear enough to me. Other people just don't seem to get it. I get so fed up with dealing with both issues. I get tired very easily and need to have my own space a lot. I come from an isolated family, with a history of depression and anxiety. I always try to think positive though. I really do. I sometimes think of myself as the most positive minded depressed person I know. Anxiety is my biggest demon and it causes me to fall into states of depression. Really I love life and humanity so very very much. I just get so upset at how limited I feel. Lately, I just haven't had anyone to talk to about my frustrations. That's how I stumbled on this site. I was just looking for reassurance that I am not alone in dealing with the rotten burden of anxiety, which I truly consider to be my greatest demon.

Interests

I love yoga, spirituality, going out for walks (on those days when I feel I can tackle it), cooking (when I'm not feeling too depressed). I've been a vegetarian for 15 years :) I still eat eggs and sometimes chicken and fish in very small amounts, but absolutely no red meat or pork. I also avoid milk and milk products, sticking to soymilk instead (though every now and then I'll splurge and have some cheese). I would eventually like to convert to veganism one of these days.