Journal Entry for May 7, 2008
May 7, 2008 3:45am
Past midnight, 5/7/08
"Bad" isn't the exact way I'm feeling right now. "Sad" is what my face is …
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I am a RN who has been caregiving my 2 elderly parents for the past 2 years in southern California. I have never used the Internet much, but am excited to see how DS works!
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Journal Entry for November 7, 2007
November 7, 2007 1:38am
Tuesday, 11/6/07
Difficult day caring for declining parents. For the past three days my Dad has had blood in his urine. Even with …
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Journal Entry for October 14, 2007
October 14, 2007 8:12pm
Sunday, a day of rest, especially after cooking for the family this weekend and taking my Dad to his social engagements. . .
When I'm tired I eat …
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Hi Joyce: Sounds like you have so much on your plate. I do think about you and hope you are doing ok. Love, Kristy
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Greetings O Beekeeper, What's the buzz?? (sorry I couldn't resist) :)
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You are right about timing. It seems that we both have a lot on our plates and rarely any time for ourselves. But it would be nice if we could sometime. It's awfully lonely when you spend most of your time in the house taking care of family. But I don't regret it. I hope when I am old or sick someone takes good care of me. Good talking to you Joyce. You can relate and it's hard to explain to other people the frustrations sometimes. Kristy
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I was thinking, it would be nice to meet you someday. You are about 1 1/2 hours north of me. I have no friends down here and we have a lot in common. Wouldn't that be fun?
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may we all feel up to facing down life's challenges this week and always
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Close Eating Disorders
Type: BulimiaBeing the youngest of 4 kids, whose parents worked fulltime, I came home to an empty house. When my middle brother came home, who is dyslexic - school was a frustrating/horrible experience for him, he would eat his way through the kitchen. Thus, I learned from him that this is what we did after school to cope, as well as nuture ourselves. As a family we are all overweight/obese. Overeating is how we nuture ourselves. Sad.
Treatments
- Dietitian Consult Not Working
- No. The focus was what foods to eat, not why/emotions behind it.
- Group Therapy Somewhat Helpful
- Done years ago. Was the most helpful - broke isolation
- Overeaters Anonymous (OA) Somewhat Helpful
- Sometimes I felt overly serious about everything while doing the program. Which felt overwhelming at times.
- Paxil Not Working
- Was on Paxil, I gained 20 pounds after I started to take.
- Prozac Not Working
- In 1989, I was Prozac for a year = gained 60 pounds (very sad face).
Close Multiple Myeloma
My Mom was dx'ed in 12/05, with stage 4. She has not done anti-cancer tx'ment, but does take suppression tx'ment: dexamethasone every 2 weeks for 4 days ("pulse dose"), along with Prevacid. When anemic, determined by every 2 week blood work, then I give her a Procrit shot. Lastly, she gets monthly IV infusion of Zometa to keep her bones strong. Lack of energy and shortness of breath are her challenges.
Treatments
- Dexamethasone Somewhat Helpful
- increases energy, but depression happens a day or too after, increases appetite
- Zometa Somewhat Helpful
- the bone fx'ed my Mom has had have been minor
- Laughter Working / Worked
- My Mom now throws her banana peels over her shoulder, we laugh. She enjoys reading the National Enquirer, or I read it to her, we laugh. We play cards, I cheat, we laugh. We even got her oncologist to taste the liquid laxatives she takes- we really laughed, and so did he!
Open Depression
Type: Clinical (Major) DepressionGrowing up was not supportive. I was the youngest of four kids, the only girl, plus I was quiet and melted into any situation without protest. I knew I had a sensitivity about me which was a gift, but the dark side was that I have always felt sad. My first tx'ment with meds was when I was 29. I am now 47, and am on Cymbalta, which has worked for me. I'm know totally free of depression, but I have experience/more tools to cope with it, so most times I'm doing okay.
Treatments
- Cognitive Behavioral Therapy Working / Worked
- Takes time, but increased self awareness.
- Cymbalta Working / Worked
- Little side effects for me. Expensive!
- Lexapro Working / Worked
- Fine. Little side effects for me.
- Paxil Working / Worked
- Decreased anxiety. Weight gain.
- Prozac Working / Worked
- Weight gain.
- Psychotherapy Working / Worked
- Expensive, but someone to help focus on what my core issues are, and to gather tools for self help.
- Wellbutrin Working / Worked
- Had to stop, vision was blurred.
- Zoloft Working / Worked
- Weight gain.
- Physical Exercise Working / Worked
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