Hate and then some
July 13, 2008 5:51pm
Why is life so damn hard headed, Everyday I wake up and continue this hell. I just want the death angel to take me. Of course I never get what I want.
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Journal Entry for March 31, 2008
March 31, 2008 7:19pm
Life the cruelest joke of all. I woke up again today why? Maybe tommorow I can just sleep the sleep of eternity. I hate waking up anymore its just to …
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Journal Entry for February 6, 2008
February 6, 2008 3:01pm
I do not know what I was thinking however my starting weight was 272 NOT the posted 260. That is what I weigh now and am progressing nicely. I am …
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Close Anger Management
I have serious anger issues to the extent of affecting my life and relationships with others.
Treatments
- BuSpar Working / Worked
- So today I will have been on this med for about two weeks, I can tell a huge difference in the way I feel and a whole lot less angry and anxious. So far so good.
Close Self-Injury
I am the original Ol man, Mentally physically and emotionally. Life and living are what I call the never ending battle, What did I do to live this long.
Treatments
- Group Therapy Not Working
- Never did I still cut when I cannot see light in a very dark place, I live in the land of post nuclear war, dark dead and lost.
- Lexapro Working / Worked
- To soon to tell, these meds I have only been on for about a month.
- Psychotherapy Not Working
- How do I feel ? What a question, If I felt good I sure wouldn't waste my time here.
- Talking Working / Worked
- Yet to see, I am still here on this plane no guarantees. It is one more day after one last day.
Open Coronary Heart Disease
I have two coronary arteries that are 100% occluded and one that is 70%. In 2005 I went on SSDI I could not work anymore. I am tired most times and stress is a major deal, I have anger and anxiety and depression issues as well.
Treatments
- Angioplasty Not Working
- 30% heart muscle damage so this was a no go.
- Aspirin Working / Worked
- Child dosage seems to work I have not had an attack in three years.
- Lipitor Working / Worked
- 20mg daily
- Plavix Working / Worked
- Just started this about a month ago.
- Stents Not Working
- Again to much damage to the muscle of the heart to even try.
- Metoprolol Working / Worked
- So far I have not had a re-occurance in over three years.
Open Depression
Type: Clinical (Major) DepressionI feel old in every way possible, I am lethargic and feel the weight of the world on me daily, I sleep 12 to 14 hours a day.
Treatments
- Electroconvulsive therapy Working / Worked
- Very temporary and lost huge chunks of memory both long and short term I would NOT advise this
- Lexapro Too Soon to Tell
- Been on it a month
- Wellbutrin Working / Worked
- After two years it simply stopped Dr put me on zoloft with no real benefits. I was angry still am, I self injure.
- Zoloft Not Working
- Nope worse than nothing
- BuSpar Working / Worked
- Lexapro Too Soon to Tell
- I hope it does only been on it about a month
Open Impotence & Erectile Dysfunction
In 2004 I had three MI in eight months, I am now on social security disability. I have ED caused from blood flow and blockage of arteries. I take several heart meds. This may be a possible reason for the ed.
Treatments
- Viagra Somewhat Helpful
- I take 50mg and it seems to be helpful however I would prefer to have a natural or organic solution.
Open Heart Failure
In 2004 had three major MI now on SSDI for income and no surgery yet. I have three occlusions one at 100% one at 99% one at 70%. I am hoping to have surgery this year as my cardiologist says my heart is getting better.
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