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Saturday, March 22, 2008 | An Inspiring story

Since I last wrote that I met a woman I had strong feelings for, my feelings have grown into to a most profound love that touches my heart every day so deeply, and she feels the same way.

I have not crossed any physical lines with her because I did not want this to start as an affair, but it certainly could be called an affair of the heart.

Last Saturday I told my wonderful boyfriend that I need him to release me to be with women, that I will always love him from the bottom of my heart, but that I have changed and now want to be with women. We both cried for two solid days.

Then on Tuesday he told me he understood and to follow my path of truth.

On Thursday he asked if there was a particular woman I was interested with and I told him that there was. He was so amazing. He actually said to me that he wants to be sure I go with someone who will love me completely, that I deserve that.

Isn't that amazing!!! I feel like my lovely boyfriend and I are honoring each other and all of our years together, and he is so bravely letting me go so that I can have what he knows is so profoundly important to me, even though it is breaking both of our hearts. It is scary, all this change, but feels like what I need to do in my life. I'm listening to my true inner voice.

I hope he and I will continue to stay connected in this positive way. I hate the word "break up" because it sounds so hostile, almost violent. My boyfriend and I are no longer a couple, but we will forever be connected in our hearts, and he has shown the most mature, true love by understanding my need to move in a new direction.

We both wish the absolute best for each other and will always be there for each other.

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Good-O .... I'm really not surprised though, and you have handled this whole thing so well. You are a good person.

JosephW
Good luck to you,follow your heart and remember it doesn,t matter what or who you are, love is something you can,t keep away,isn,t that the whole purpose of being here to learn to love? cry? hate? and all the other crap our so called friend,s? my god parent,s are both gay,although i am straight they are on the end of the line if i need them,go for it never mind what other people say it is your life,why should you surpress your desire,s and love because of some prude who think,s it,s just a phase in your life,what gives them the right to judge you? go for it,if it doesn,t work,then you.ll have learnt from the experiance,i hope you do get together,and i hope it works out for you both.
God bless you both.love callum x

mumsson
Wow, I wish I had been stronger and been able to end it with my fiance before kissing B. I am so glad for you. It must be great to know that you choose such loving partners. I hope that you are able to do what you need to.

chickof78
i too wish that i could have done it the way that you did...you are brave and strong and i admire you for it! i wish you all the happiness!

chicadee