ellei's Journal

I am feeling better today.  I applied to another job opening at this company.  My supervisor is the hiring manager and recommended I apply.  I hope I get the job.  It is beneath my work experience but I simply want a permanent position.  I can look for a better job later.  This temp shit is bullshit.  I'd like to have some medical insurance and the like.  I got a phone call from another company closer to home.  They are expanding their formulations department and have several job openings.  It's a good company, one I've applied to in the past.  I will have to call back tomorrow and find out if it's temp or permanent.  I don't even want to consider temp right now.  I'm not that desperate yet.  Like I told the other SSF company, I'm only considering permanent positions at this time.  Hope this doesn't bite me in the ass.  My boyfriend leaves for Vegas tomorrow.  I will leave on Friday.  I am going to be lonely and bored.  We haven't been having any sex and it is bothering him.  I think I have a problem.  I should desire to have sex but I don't and he takes it personally.  I don't blame him.  I would too.  I sometimes feel bad.  Most of the time I am so sick of feeling bad that I just don't fucking care.  About anyone or anything.  I have done so much for people in my past that I just don't give a shit anymore.