AnAddictionAdored's Journal

I didn't binge!

I'm so proud.
I worked out for about an hour and a half today so I'm just happy that I'm slowly gaining normality back!
I was almost slipping into binge mode at about 8-9pm but i distracted myself with a PC game and i worked away from it.

I've been eating small meals and snacks every 90 minutes.
I was thinking about trying for just every 3 hours, but i decided that was too long and i couldn't stay focused for that long.
At least not yet anyway.
:) Little steps!
And it worked today!
After about an hour i usually was thinking about food again, but it was much easier to tell myself "Just 30 more minutes" then "wait until next meal time!!".
And since i worked out, i felt OK eating so much.
I'm really trying to stay focused on healthy living, instead of just what the scale says.

I'm still technically "dieting" to lose weight, but I'm eating more.
Much more...
I'm simply working out (although not obsessively! just enough to stay fit and healthy!).
Focusing on the nutritional side of my diet as apposed to simply "how low can i get my calories today?" or "how many calories can i cram into my mouth in one go tonight?!" is much better.
It gives my mind something to think about without being too destructive.
Then, once i get back to the weight i was before my 4 days of binging, I'll evaluated whether i think i should continue or whether i should start maintenance.

:) Anyway, that's enough for now! I'll post again tomorrow and let you know how i did.
I'm going to be having lunch in town with my family tomorrow (yelp ), which I'm a little nervous about.
I find it so difficult to restrain myself from overeating when I'm around them.
We're getting fish and chips for lunch to have at the park.
I'm thinking I'll take some steamed veggies with me, maybe some carrot sticks, so i don't JUST eat chips.
:) Wish me luck!

Take care all!
C.