It's Wednesday!!
June 25, 2008 4:06pm
Just returned from the pediatrition's office. What a waste of time! All I wanted was information about my son's sprained elbow, …
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About Me
I am the mother of 4, 3 bio one adopted. My youngest bio son was murdered by a "relative", a nut with a gun. Been trying to find that elusive "new normal". I tear up the web looking for answers, I've found a few, but I'm not yet satisfied. Hope to one day be able to forgive my child's killer, I'm nowhere close to forgivness yet.
Interests
I used to love to watch basketball, Mark and I would watch games together and discuss the players, the plays, the teams, now it makes me cry so I can't watch anymore. THERE'S NO CRYING IN BASKETBALL!!! I read alot, anything that's interesting, although for the last few years it's been spiritual books and murder mysterys. Want to start gardening again, especially vegetables, can't find the energy though, at least I'm thinking about it again so maybe this spring...
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Recent Activity
June 25
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rememberme wrote a journal entry: It's Wednesday!! 4:06pm
Just returned from the pediatrition's office. What a waste of time! All I wanted was information…
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rememberme gave joeymom a Hug 3:10pm
Speaking of dogs, my computer went wacky, seems the keyboard was packed with doghair! Had to blow it…
June 24
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rememberme wrote a journal entry: Thank God it's Monday 12:04am
What a funny thing to say, TGIM. I think my keyboard is full os dog hair, it's not working right.…
June 23
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rememberme gave joeymom a Hug 11:16pm
BAD DOG!!! Don't show him any Benjamins!!!!…
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rememberme gave joeymom a Hug 11:04pm
Aren't dogs the best...and the worst? Mine is shedding like crazy,his hair is messing up my keyboard!…
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rememberme gave joeymom a Hug 10:35pm
My days are good right now, busy, but good. The dog not so good, he just ate a kitty cookie, ewww! What's…
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rememberme gave ABrow a Hug 10:28pm
Have a great weekend!!! Oh, to be 18 again...got a boyfriend? Spill girl!!…
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rememberme commented on ABrow’s journal entry Journal Entry for June 21, 2008 10:18pm
The bus stop formy 13 yr old is about 4 houses down, a couple of weeks ago he was runnin for the bus…
June 21
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rememberme wrote a journal entry: What a week!! 3:40am
Well it started off ok, Tuesday was my 13 year old's last day of school. He did ok, would've…
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rememberme gave starfish a Hug 2:43am
My son adopted a new cat, a stray, medium size black kitten, named him Obama. He is a little nut, gonna…
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Thank God it's Monday
June 24, 2008 12:04am
What a funny thing to say, TGIM. I think my keyboard is full os dog hair, it's not working right. Anyway things are up in the air …
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What a week!!
June 21, 2008 3:40am
Well it started off ok, Tuesday was my 13 year old's last day of school. He did ok, would've liked better grades but he passed …
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This Game's In The Refridgerator, in Boston
June 17, 2008 11:40pm
Congrats Boston C's...2008 NBA Champions
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Viva La Vida
June 14, 2008 7:32pm
Love, love, love this this:
Viva La Vida
I used to rule the world
Seas would rise when I gave the word
Now in the morning I sweep alone
Sweep …
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Hugs..hope you find time to rest. love lucille
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Wanted to say hello and see how your doing have a good night love Caroline
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lol no bf. just focusing on me and having fun and so ready for college boys =] have a great friday.
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HUGS...for tonight.
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Hope you are geeting some rest. Love lucille
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Support Groups
Close Bereavement
my son Mark was a victim of homicide. he was 21 when he died. he was trying to help a "family member" who is an addict to stop. the man shot him. this happened april of 2005.
Treatments
- Crying Not Working
- i've cried a river. my eyes hurt now. sometimes it's dangerous(driving) doesn't make me feel better.
- Getting Angry Considering
- i scream at God every once in a while.
- Keeping Busy Not Working
- i kept myself so busy that i wound up in a hospital, started as a cold turned into bronchitis
- Music Working / Worked
- i listen to the music my son loved. i love it now too, but it makes me feel sad
- Prayer Working / Worked
- seems i'm always begging for help.
- Reading Working / Worked
- i've read many 'life after death' type books. i read the bible, i read whatever will distract me from my pain
- Remembering Working / Worked
- for a long time i couldn't remember much before Mark's murder. things are coming back now.
- Support from Friends & Family Working / Worked
- friends mean the world.
- Talking Somewhat Helpful
- people do get sick of hearing it.
- Time Too Soon to Tell
- i felt so bad for so long, i wondered if it would last for life. thankfully i don't feel quite as bad physically, but i am still sad sad sad
Close Back Pain
SCIATICA need I say more. How do I prevent flare ups? How do I make it go away forever?
Treatments
- Bedrest Working / Worked
- takes at least 5 days before pain eases up. never get 100 percent relief from bedrest. very boring and lonely to lie in bed for days.
- Carisoprodol Working / Worked
- relaxing. helped me sleep. tastes nasty.
- Heat Working / Worked
- felt really good.
- Hydrocodone Working / Worked
- relieved the pain but sometimes caused nausea, also scary because of habit forming qualities of med.
- Naproxen Working / Worked
- dr prescribed so i took it.
Open Stress Management
I amm trying to recover from the murder of my child by a member of my extended family. I don't eat, can't sleep, always looking over my shoulder, very angry.
Treatments
Open Irritable Bowel Syndrome (IBS)
I've suffered the drizzelin S**** Since 1999. Didn't know what was up and lived with it until a couple years ago. Finally talked to doc. Thankfully occurs infrequently now, but when it does, get the heck out of my way cause i gotta get into the bathroom NOW!
Treatments
- Avoid Certain Foods / Chemicals Working / Worked
- Yes avoiding certain foods works, but I love some of those foods so I'll eat them anyway, and just spend time paying the consequence.
- Lomotil Working / Worked
- Sometimes had to take an extra dose but on the whole works great for me.
Open Bereavement - Teens
i LOST MY OLDER BROTHRT ,mARK. 4/3/05 OMG IT HURTS
Treatments
- Music Somewhat Helpful
- GAHH I DUNNO
Open Hepatitis C
a very close friend has hcv and is about to start treatment. i want to help.
Open High Blood Pressure
my very close friend suffers from HBP, he will be discussing w/ you guys,,Seems to work for me.. I use a juicer and have a good recipe,,,2 large glases a day about 500ml
Treatments
- Metoprolol Somewhat Helpful
- 1st my BP was at like 180s over 140s doc put me on a beta blocker Toprol XL 50mg a day.. It brought it down some to 150s120s.. I saw a US FDA report on yahoo about beet juice it reported 500ml a day to be beneficial so I tried it.. I make beet juice in a juicer... 2 lg beets 2 or 3 carrots 1 cucumber and a couple of apples Tastes great and brought my BP down more to about 140s130s over 90s Quit for a week went higher started juicin again and it has gone back down.
Open Anxiety
Was Selective Mute as a child, still am sometimes, never had medical intervention, only recently learned it's a real honest to goodness disorder, was led to believe I'm filled with character flaws.
Treatments
- Breathwork Working / Worked
- Helps to get oxygen in the brain
- Meditation Working / Worked
- Learned this as a teen, helps to center myself, but doesn't calm the fear
- Positive Thinking Working / Worked
- I try so hard to be positive, last fews years it's been impossible, Maybe if I keep trying things will get better
- St. John\'s Wort Working / Worked
- Xanax Working / Worked
- Took xanax for 5 months after death of my son, helped alot, but this stuff is scary addictive so I stopped using it
