Well, I remembered this morning …
Well, I remembered this morning that the imago counselor is out of town for two weeks, so we won't hear from him until …
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So, life is odd for me right now. My mother and father have been together for 32 years and on Saturday my mom decided she was leaving. Apparently my father has taken up drinking too much. The whole thing is just crazy. When I was a child my parents NEVER drank - they NEVER did anything. Then a few years back my father had gastric bypass surgery (he was morbidly obese) and all of the sudden he becomes this drunk (trading addictions?). He has been in 2 accidents b/c he drinks and drives and refuses to let anyone give him a ride, and when he is drunk he is absolutely ridiculous - for Geesh sake he pees himself! I do not blame my mother at all for what she has had to do...but I also feel terrible for my father, he has a lot of issues to deal with.
Right now I am trying not to let my codependent tendencies get in the way. I have to remind myself that the two of them are adults and will handle things just fine. I also have to remind myself that I can not do anything about this situation besides be there to support both of them. But, I do hurt for both of them, b/c I know both of them hurt right now. And I seem to be going thru a bit of mourning and grieving for the relationship. Does this seem odd? My mind wants to think of all the things that "might" happen and try to resolve those things = CODEPENDENCY - but at least I recognize this. I just don't want them to hurt, or struggle, or anything else bad.
I am an adult...do you think it is odd for me to get upset about this? Is it odd that I cry when I think about it? I just love 'em and I wish it did not have to be this way.
On another note, I am in severe pain right now. I am waiting for my doctor to open so I can try to get in and see him. I have had a reoccuring pilodial cyst which has flared up terribly recently (I think it is b/c of of pregnancy hormones). I am a worried about how it is affecting the baby - I have a fever and swolen glands in my pelvic region which hurt really bad too. Obviously my body is fighting this infection a lot. I am affraid that I will have to go in for surgery this time and also worried about how surgery will affect the baby. As far as me...I am not so scared of the operation itself - but it is the healing - UGH!
Well, thanks for reading.
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oh my God I just had two surgeries for pelvic absess due to bladder tack up surgery from 4 years ago.There was still some tape that didnt dissolve.
I dont think it is weird at all for you to mourn your parents divorce.It is normal I would think.I know you are concerned for both of them,just love them both.God bless,Let us know what the doctor says about the pelvic sist...Mine was so painful before the surgery and I know how bad and maybe afraid you are.Ya know god can use situations for good,just wait until you see what he will do in this one,trust in him..
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