me..? ok so i work 7 days a week as a waitress. the resturaunt i work at is in A LOT of fianicial stress (as is most buisness's in nz atm) so haveing no purpose of my own im trying my best to help my boss who has come to be a good friend of mine, get things up and going again. i dont earn much as my boss cant afford to pay me more. but i do get meals at work and i can hole up next to the fire on the slpit with a free coffee reading my book till my next shift starts. so i dont mind. The money i do earn goes towards the ridiculous amounts of petrol it takes me to get to work (45 minute drive) and the rest is for the bord my evil parents make me pay and im putting as much aside as i can to go overseas eventually. but thats a long time in the future. i have no problem telling you im intelligent.. or i could be if i applied myself in school before i left. but i naturally understand things. im sure i could have gone far if depression didnt kick me in the arse and make me sleep all day to escape my bullshit. so thats me im not much, just a shell really. waiting to be filled
music. books....... does work count?
June 29, 2008 4:22am
what happened to you to make you so scared? becoming a shadow of what you were.you run without thinking for thinking forces you to confront the very …
June 8, 2008 5:50am
Blind
I can see you
In all your ugliness
You hide your insecurities behind your vanity
But I can see you. And …
May 23, 2008 3:01am
sometimes i feel like when i post a discussion people dont comment because they see its me. sometimes when i walk into a mall or supermarket i …
April 6, 2008 5:12am
i should be happy
bought myself a new car 2 days ago (its great)
just came back from a week long holiday to australia. i went to see Celine Dion …
random hugs..
Just read your reply to 45678s post, I can sympathise with you no not having much money. I hope you get throught to Thursday OK. Prices here in NZ sure are bad at the moment, and we all need to stretch every cent. HUGS to you from a fellow Kiwi
Hey, random hug for you, I saw your board in ed. I can really relate to you, with the ed and with depression. And I love your profile pic.
I have set up a new support group come and have a look http://dailystrength.org/groups/he...
ive had depression for 5 years now. ive had am emotionally abusive relationship with an x, a slightly strange relationationship with dad and i hate mum but dont know why. i left school because i felt like a burdon on ppl.
i self harm i cut thats it..
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i dunno im just not hungry and then i get busy at work and i lose another 5kg or so and i never gain it back
