Trueladyaja's Journal

One of the most difficult things I have had to deal with is that after I found out that I had a Blighted Ovum I had to walk around like that for weeks before I could get my insurance to cover the D & C I needed to remove it.
A coworker and I were trying to conceive around the same time. Both of us had been on birth control for some years and anticipated that It would take some time before we would conceive. I had started trying some months before her with no success. After 8 months I finally conceived and I was so excited until I found out that there would be no baby. I recently returned to work after having had the D&C. To discover that she is expecting. Her baby is due the week after mine would have arrived. She just found out and did not tell me because of what I have recently been through. I think that was really sweet and considerate. But its hard for me to come to work and hear about the milestones in her pregnancy. She came to work the other day with her ultra sound pictures, I could hear everyone getting exited and talking about the future and what she should expect during her pregnancy. She told the story of how her husband reacted and what they might name the baby. I'm usually a very positive person and I thought that I was over it but the way I reacted hearing of her good news let me know that I am not. How do I deal with this over the next few months? When she does tell me how do I show genuine excitement for her and her good news with out seeming insincere or jealous? If anyone has suggestions please let me know.