sleepykitten's Journal

Yesterday I went to the doctors. I got put on another type of medication, because I think my citaloprams are not helping with my anxiety. I explained to my doctor I was diagnsoed with Anxiety before my depression and I feel like it is my main illness.

I am frightened about my stomach ulcer too, I have to have another blood test, go to the hospital and get a tube into my stomach and go on two more types of medication. But at least its getting sorted.

My anxiety is terrible today, I can't cope with uni. Its horrible. There is so much work and I'm frightened I wont ever be able to get a job. I SO want to be sucessful. I guess just to prove to everybody I can do it, to everyone thats ever hurt me that I'm over it and I'm better than them. Everyone has doubted me so much. I need to show them. but I also know I need to let this go and just do my own thing and be happy with what I want to do.