msheather's Journal

Positive thought for the day: Put a little summer in someone's winter. Smile! 

You are all so funny about kicking Larry's a**! Oh believe me when I can finally get out of this place, I am going to tell him exactly what I think of him. Today is my day off and he'll come home complaining that I didn't clean the house (it's ALL their mess - there are dirty dishes all over the counter and in the sink, the house is a mess but all I have done here is sleep and shower) I will clean the bathroom I use today to avoid any of his crap and empty the trash (because I do put things in the trash you know) but other than that I an not their housekeeper! My sister had her princess house party last Saturday and I told her that if she wanted me to buy anything that she would have to hold the check until this Friday (which they knew since I am having some financial trouble) well all Larry kept saying was "she is going to have the rent she owes us right, you know it's 2 weeks, right" - he makes me crazy.  I have his rent along with the $30.00 I spent at Crystal's princess house party - I told him you were the one that wanted me here and to buy something at her party.  He actually stayed here with 12 women just to see what my sister was doing/buying! I drive by this store on my way to work and someone won 1 million dollars on a strach ticket on Tuesday, why couldn't that be me?! Although I rarely spend money on the lottery so I don't have such a good chance of winning. I just want to win enough money to get the hell out of here!  Now after the big fight everytime Larry goes in the kitchen and makes noise I get to hear "Heather, I am NOT slamming things around I am just looking for something" the other night I told him to back off and I didn't want to hear it anymore because he was slamming things that day - my sister says to ignore him like she does, sorry I am not going to let him treat me like that, if she wants to that's her business!  Things with Victor are going OK, we are friendly now but I have stopped really worrying about it. I am going to take care of me first and then whatever happens, happens.  I can't spend my whole life worrying about other people and things that are out of my control. The few times we have been together recently have been pleasant, no fighting, no arguing, actually talking like the adults we are.  He did say that he realizes now that things were not as bad as he made them out to be and we did do a lot and have a lot of fun together just the last 6 months were tough and I would agree with that. My 3 month evaluation went well, I got the keys to the office - the numbers are down so no raise, I'll have to wait until July for a raise. In May I am eligible for the 401K which is required 3% but he gives 15% to everyone and you can either put it in retirement or take it in a check for the other 12% so that will help me out. I am very happy there so even though I surely could have used a raise, I am OK with it.