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I have been so busy with the demands of school, my health and work. So with all of that I have not had much time to journal as much as I had hoped. I also have been battling with many things that I cannot seem to get past, so I am realizing that I need to start journaling again. Basically get everything out in the open,.and deal with it head on instead of having it swimming on and on in my head. So yes I am back to Dailystrength. So hmm I am not sure where to start.
Well with work I have been busy with that and building a freelance writing business for myself and so far I have been doing well. I am learning about the type of work that I am great at and then work that I am not so good at or don't think that I am. I need to work more on my self-esteem more so that I can push myself to do even more great things. Lets see what else, I have been dating again, and so far I have not met anyone worth my time, and one asshole after another. I did go out on a date last month, and it was okay and then he had the nerve to ask me for a ride home. Needless to say he ended up walking home LOL. I don't know him well to do that sort of thing and then he kept hinting about sex several times on the date. So I am kinda of iffy on the dating thing right now, as my interest is there, and then it disappears at times.
I know that I am not searching for a boyfriend just a date. Lets see what else, well I am graduating from college in less than a month, and I am really happy about it but at the same time I am scared about the high amounts of time that I will have available. Also not having assignments and work that I will have to do and such. So I will miss the responsibility and feeling worthy. I am battling with dealing with my family wanting to move with them to Jamaica, and I have basically a year to see if I can it on my own.
I want to go out and do more things but I am so frustrated that I get so sick and then I am not able to go to places. So I think after I finish my schooling I will have more time to work on things.
I have been so busy with the demands of school, my health and work. So with all of that I have not had much time to journal as much as I had hoped. I also have been battling with many things that I cannot seem to get past, so I am realizing that I need to start journaling again. Basically get everything out in the open,.and deal with it head on instead of having it swimming on and on in my head. So yes I am back to Dailystrength. So hmm I am not sure where to start.
Well with work I have been busy with that and building a freelance writing business for myself and so far I have been doing well. I am learning about the type of work that I am great at and then work that I am not so good at or don't think that I am. I need to work more on my self-esteem more so that I can push myself to do even more great things. Lets see what else, I have been dating again, and so far I have not met anyone worth my time, and one asshole after another. I did go out on a date last month, and it was okay and then he had the nerve to ask me for a ride home. Needless to say he ended up walking home LOL. I don't know him well to do that sort of thing and then he kept hinting about sex several times on the date. So I am kinda of iffy on the dating thing right now, as my interest is there, and then it disappears at times.
I know that I am not searching for a boyfriend just a date. Lets see what else, well I am graduating from college in less than a month, and I am really happy about it but at the same time I am scared about the high amounts of time that I will have available. Also not having assignments and work that I will have to do and such. So I will miss the responsibility and feeling worthy. I am battling with dealing with my family wanting to move with them to Jamaica, and I have basically a year to see if I can it on my own.
I want to go out and do more things but I am so frustrated that I get so sick and then I am not able to go to places. So I think after I finish my schooling I will have more time to work on things.
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I have had waaaay too many appointments for this week. I had one on Monday, one today and then one tomorrow, and I am suppose to have one on Friday but I am postponing that one. I am feeling the burn and drained out from all of these appointments. I am very grateful that my parents have been able to drive me around. I thanked my mom for going with me today as I was nervous about this appointment. It is for disability. The doctor was like oh you are young and I told him that pain does not discriminate, and he was whoa yes that is true and made him laugh.
So yeah we shall see what happens.
Monday was crazy and I had it out with my classmate and she was being a total bitch, and definitely not understanding about those who are different from her, and have struggles with their health.
This week because of the appointments and such I have missed out on my workouts. So tomorrow I hope to be able to go to workout in the pool and Friday maybe I can go to the gym section. So we shall see how I feel....
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oh girl, i know what too many apts feel like too. kinda makes you feel like a lab rat, huh? you poor thing. i hope things lighten up for you soon.
Hey there everyone,
Wow it has definitely been some time since I last updated my journal. I have been so busy with trying to get better healthwise, dealing with school and the demands of that, felt a major jolt of an earthquake in my area and learning more in the writing world. So with all of those things, you can definitely expect that I am on the go more often these days.
I have been taking an aquafit class and that does help build up my stamina, and I have been trying to learn and do all that I can handle without overdoing it and I really need to get some of this weight off of at least 20 pounds would be great.
I have been battling with many things but lets just say that I really need to look at the here and now, and what I can do for my future instead of my past and looking at the mistakes of my life. Being sick really does make you reflect back a lot and I have to remind myself that I cannot change the past but I can prepare for my future.
Gosh what else, I think another friendship of mine ended as I have not heard from her in like a month now I think, I've been so busy to really notice, hehe, but a big part of me is glad that I said something to her as I caught her in a couple of lies and the drama is gone. All I have done is move on. Focused on myself and meeting my needs.
I took down my dating profile indefinitely...I feel no interest in dating right now and it just seems like a lot of work and I just do not have the strength nor interest in it. So I put it away for now. Maybe in a few months or next year I will see where I am at with that.
Hmm my pain is not too good right now but I am hanging in there the best that I can.
Alrightyyyy then lol, time for me to stretch for a bit....laterz!
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Ok first Congrats on finishing up school! You should be very proud of yourself! As for work and moving and everything else - don't try and take it on all at once - do one thing at a time. Make a plan, set some goals and figure out what it is you want to do. You have a year to tell your family so spend that time figuring out what it is you want. As for dating - sounds like that guy was a creep! I myself am not worrying about dating - just looking to better myself right now. :) Hang in there - the right things will come along and you will do just fine! Hugs CathyM
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