Journal Entry for March 29, 2008
March 29, 2008 10:44am
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Twoyearsclean
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About Me
I'm a degreed professional that started to seriously gamble in Indian casinos about 5 years ago. There are 97 casinos now in Oklahoma (one slot machine for every 97 people), and they are adding more every day. I am getting a divorce...because not only does the gambler have to recover, but the entire family. I have one son and very deep in debt. But I have not placed a bet since 9/20/05. I realize through reconnectiong with my higher power I can do this...praying for His will not mine.
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Work, Work, Work to pay off the debts....NO BAILOUTS!!!! The rest of the time I am with my son.
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February 12, 2008 8:20pm
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Journal Entry for February 6, 2008
February 6, 2008 12:01am
Getting ready to ramp up the divorce process. My wife has completely demonized me in front of my son. She has lied, told half-truths, and never …
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Journal Entry for January 25, 2008
January 25, 2008 3:55am
So much to say..and it's late...I have been clean since 9/20/05. I am now getting a divorce because of my gambling...my wife never …
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I feel you need to be a little gentler on yourself, although I understand we all need to be our own disciplinarian, but isn't your ex as much responsible for your situation as you are, she lived with you for years and years, did she not she you falling down? Sometimes people don't realise they can affect others over the long-term with a little comment here and there, but over the long-term the affect can be a low view of one-self. It seems when someone can depend on another, respect is lost, and any idea of the limits of the other person goes out the window. I have had people like that in my life, I'm finally starting to realise I'm a lot better than I realise. Hope you get there too.
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I work as security in a casino and I see how easily people can get addicted. Stay strong and be proud for stopping.
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you think 8 monthd is bad try 5 years lol
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Treatments
- Gamblers Anonymous Working / Worked
- The greatest jackpot I ever hit was walking into GA !!!
- Xanax Working / Worked
- It got me over the hump to stop gambling, now I am addicted and trying to wean off.
Close Healthy Sex
I haven't had in 8 months and I'm getting frustrated
Open Breakups & Divorce
My addictions caused my divorce and her not seeking help to recover from me. I recovered, she didn't and I refused to take her abuse any longer. She decided to end our intimate relationship almost a year ago (March 07) and that started things going downhill. I moved out in June, moved back in July..but I was already mentally divoced by then. I am in therapy and my therapist listed 4 steps or components of divorce physical(intimacy), separation (moving out) financial and legal.
Treatments
- Couples Counseling Not Working
- Too little too late.
- Leave Not Working
- Worked great got away from Medusa, haven't seen her since I left 11/16/07. HUGE RELIEF to be away from the abuse.
- Psychotherapy Working / Worked
- It is helping me work on myself...not our marriage. Its long gone.
- Support Groups Working / Worked
- Gamblers Anonymous, we'll see how it helps.
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