TennesseeKidd's Journal

Hey All

Haven't wrote since Thursday. I had a good PT session since I miss so many sessions and then my therapist is moving to another place but lucky me he's moving closer to the hospital so I'm moving with him. Group was good even though I wanted to talk and didn't get to. New people and alot of talk. Stay afteward and talk some and then found out the new therapy place and went home. I was real tired so I went home and by 1130 I was in bed. Friday and Saturday I work on my homework. Joey went to get groceries. Rhonda had appt with doctor with Alex and was wore out by time she got home so she stay home and rest.I got some homework home after a extension with a project of course I made A's on all the other and F on the one I turn in and got til wed to turn in a better one.Then we got til saturday the 21st to turn in unit 5 and we are finish for two weeks break and I can't wait. Daun who is from ds and her daughter is coming to visit yeaaaaaaaaaaaa.Well Sunday I was bumm out because it was father's day but I start from the beginning. Dad is an alcoholic. He drank all my life and was always in and out of my life. He invited us around for thanksgiving and christmas when he was married to celebrate and he came around when i was in hospital but that ws about it. He had his time with the grandkids but always drank around them and it bother me. I drank and did my stuff but then when anthony was about 7 I stopp cold turkey and decied I wasn't going to be dad. Dad was divorce from mom when I was a teenager and married some lady in the mountains. Mom married my step father who died of lung cancer 4 years ago and he was good for my mom. Dad divorce and married again to the one he's married to now who drinks and smokes. She had breast cancer and is a blonde believe me. She's quacky most the time. Well about 4 years ago I met Rhonda on the puter and she has the NF the disease I have and joey my son has. She has legal cutody of Alex who has it to. Well we talk on the pute all the time and she move and we talk and we lost each other when she went in the shelter she was in houston, texas well then she got SSI and found an apartment and we got back together when she got a computer.We talk every day and even on the phone every day. We play pogo and talk and talk, Well we join this group and I thought it was a good one and it ended up bad but I kept rhonda. Well Alex was having problems in school and I said wouldn't it be cool for her to be here and alex go to school with joey. Joey goes to a christian school because he also had problems like alex had. Well eventually they ended up at my house oct 9 and stay with us. Dad didn't like the idea and call up and let me know about it. He call me stupid and told me she wasn't welcome in his house and I said fine I didn't like his smoking and drinking anyway. I didn't like his drinking never did around my kids now or when they were little. Well that end that. He talk to me the day I was clean for a year off drugs. Rhonda was upset, I was upset, everyone was upset. Dad call mom and blamed her. She call me apologizing for having him for a dad. I told her it was her fault. I said I made the choice about Rhonda. Ralph at first didn't think much about it because I really made the choice without asking him or Joey but everything seems to be working out. My step mom call before christmas and ask if we wanted to come to dinner and I ask if Rhonda was allowed to come down and she said it wasn't right and I hung up the phone after a few choice words. So anthony went to pick up some chrirtmas card and Joey decided he didn't want to go down there.My dad also said I wasn't taking care of my family and I was thinking he didn't have room to talk. So now that's the story about my dad I haven't talk to him since Nov 29,2008 and I don't think i will. It was n't a trigger to do drugs again just a trigger not to go them more.So father's day suck becasue I had a emotional headache all day and wishing it was over with. So now its over with and Monday today I  went to dentist and took Rhonda to Social Security office. Alex receives SSI and they stop because they thought Rhonda wasn't paying rent so she had to prove she was paying me and then she will get a check by monday. She feels better.So all in all a good day.I guess thats a good journal day thanks for listening and u can ask questions if you want . Have a good pain free day love to all my ds friends.

Robin