TennesseeKidd's Journal

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Well Jennifer got her stuff in her house and slept there last night. I went to bed at midnight and laid down for a minute to rest before I put my cpap on. I fell asleep ralph turn the light off and I didn't wake up until the phone rung this morning at 930. I was a little upset but I got up. It was jennifer mom. She has alizemers and she thought jennifer was still at our house. So I call jennifer. I took a pill for a migraine and went back to bed. I didn't get up til 2pm. Our neighbor step daughter died of heart attack last month before she was schedule to come down and help them move to maryland. Then his wife got sick with cancer and died about a week later so he had a memorial for them today at 2 til 5pm. Ralph and the boys went but I stayed home. I didn't do much today. Tomorrow school starts. Ralph isnt the best. Joey trying to get his school stuff together and Anthony is looking for a job. Nikki is having problems with laundry detergent and shampoo. She also has a cyst on her ovary and she is upset because she wants to have kids. So we are going day by day and see what happens. Love ya all and hope you all had a good 4th. Love. Wearing glasses, Aftercare soon,still clean, weight yuck, help kids, clean desk yuck,feel better don't think so,school tomorrow, 14 years of cancer keep a going, health is out of control, smileys is hurting, finish school sometime sometime.

Robin

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Well everything is still here. Dustin is doing ok with his foot. Sunday was quiet and I was happy. Dustin mom found a place to live now one of the boys back out from helping her with the money. Both boys draw disability and she needs both to get a house to rent or rent to own. Well she has three boys  the old est live with them in grandmas house and came in and out as he please and didn't do nothing and mom sent him on his way with his fiance pregnant to her parents garage. Well they decided they learn a lesson and wanted to live with his mom now who's name is jennifer. Well the middle son Justin went to his dad and we think his dad told him he could do anything with his money and he's decide to blow his money instead of helping with the house and his mom. Well his mom is stuck with a house in owner's finance and not alot of money but I rode with her to town the other night and we talk. I learn some about her and believe she can make it on little bit of money. She can make a little go a long way.So now she is staying with us while they are cleaning up the house and getting ready to move in. She gave us money to get food on friday or we wouldn't had money to get food. So we appreciate her help. Her kids is staying here and she is to so I guess she owes us some. But we not asking no more we are being neighbors. God says to love thy neighbors and so we are loving them and helping and if she can pay then so be it. But unless Justin pitches in they can't afford much. Before the house for some reason the boys talk Jennifer into buying two hundred dollars worth of fireworks but now she regrets buying them. Now justin wants to come down and shoot them off tomorrow well maybe we can talk. I still love Justin as a son but I don't have to like his decision and I will let him know it to. I call about my speeding ticket today and it will cost me 137.50 to pay for it or go to court so I will send it out tomorrow. Dustin has a appt today to get a eeg scedule so he can get it done so he can have surgery. Justin is suppose to have surgery in November and we thinking by then he will be changing his mind about his father and staying there because his father will not take care of him laid up after surgery. After a couple of months of blowing his check then his father will ask for money or start telling him to do stuff. Justin thinks its being a man to stand up and do what he wants with his money but he doesn't understand the concept of being a man. He's mentally challenge and I don't understanding the govenment giving him the money to spend. They should be giving it to a adult.  Well I also been to PT and he told me that other then doing the things I already know to do stress is my biggest thing and he can't help me there so he's letting me go. I went to my group. I went to see my doc on monday and he order a ct scan because my foot is starting to go out ward and I have a lump on my where I feel. So wed I got my ct scan and I will have results next week I hope. Anthony had a party at moms on tuesday and joey went to and they had fun and spent the night and then on thursday my brother is having a party but I'm not feeling the best of going. Joey is going I'm not sure about anthony. Me and brother don't get along and I still feel one of my brothers told dad about Rhonda and told bad things on her making him call me stupid letting her stay at my house. So right now the way I feel I'm staying neutral with them and staying away if I can.I do it I I feel Ok and enough so Mom doesn't think something is wrong. But I did try to take a nap and the phone rung and rung and I couldn't sleep. My doc says my labs are good and my fatigue is probably from my meds. So thats i thats. Hes leaving in december so I'm having to find another doctor. The last few months my right foot which had the cancer in it and it numb has turn out and I ignore it til now and the technician at the ct scan had to tape them together to do the scan. Well I guess thats it. I'm wearing my glasses. I got a tired smiley. I'm clean still. My weight sucks,helping out the best I can, my house sucks at the moment,school is out, I went to aftercare on tuesday but not tonight,clean desk today maybe, feel better another day, working on 14 years, health is never under control, finish school in a year. Thanks love ya all.Have a pain free day. Stick together. Pray for one another. Have patience with those who does not understand our pain.Thank God for DS and another day to be here. Love ya all.

Robin

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Well everything is going. Thursday night Jennifer talk to her boyfriend and he wants her to make dustin go back to the drug addict father. Jennifer needs to take her responsibility of the boys my opinion. She spent two days looking for somewhere to live and no luck yet. If you all pray please pray for a place for them to live. They don't make much money but they need a decent place to live. Ralph hasn't been feeling better. Dustin has been bored and found a way to get down the steps. Jennifer and Justin stay at her brother's thursday night and couldn't take dustin to surgery she took him to pre op but because of all the eeg bull shit she couldn't take him to surgery. So now she spent all day friday looking for a house to rent and dustin stay at the house with us. The doctor who did pre op will not authorize the surgery until he goes for anothe eeg so now he has to have a eeg and then have it read then have another pre op and if its clear then have surgery. The bones are so crushed that they wont grow back together he says. So now we wait. Doc appt on the 3rd. Jennifer argue with her boyfriend made lots of phone calls. Justin and Jennifer spent the night last night on the air mattress in my office. We had supper last night and they came home and ate also. Jennifer gave us hundred bucks to buy groceries with the money we had and we spent it all and didn't buy alot.We fill the frig and pantry and seem like not much for 8 people. So we talk more if she stays longer about what she pays. We going to get more groceries on pay day I hope. So just hanging out and waiting to see what happens. Hope you all have a day without pain. Love ya all and thanks for the support. Forgot to say in order for them to sleep in office rhonda help me clean my office so all to finish cleaning is my desk and go through the paperwork.I love my visit with Ryn and Daun I wish they didn't have to leave.Love ya all.

Robin