Journal Entry for June 28, 2008
June 28, 2008 3:38pm
its been two months since i last hurt myself. Wonder how long till I break again.
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Goal End Date is Jun 17, 08 39 days ago.
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toriruth
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Just wish you were here....with me.
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About Me
I am 20 and a student trying to figure out my life.I am a all type of music fan, listen to just about anything. I am just trying to figure out myself and what my family wants from me. I cut and is depressed, I'm on medication and haven't been this scared in a long time. Just smile and walk away. That's all I can do anymore. Its not worth the energy.
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I love to read and write, a lot of poems mainly. I always loose myself in my own head and daydream way to much, I guess that's my way of escaping reality.
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Journal Entry for June 15, 2008
June 15, 2008 11:18pm
Ok so it goes like this.
A friend of my family, his name is Mike, he is 19. He was in the marians and stationed in Afganastian, well we got the phone …
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Journal Entry for June 9, 2008
June 9, 2008 2:32am
I am trying to love myself.
It is not working.
Far far far from it.
I dont know how.
I just keep hurting myself.
Its hard to stop it.
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May 26, 2008 12:12am
It only takes one instance to change your life. Your car is hydroplaining down the highway. You spin in cilres 3 times.....then come parrell to the …
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thank you for the email i shall email you :D
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also u'll need my email to add me its ktclem88@hotmail.com
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and im katie. if u want to add me my myspace is http://www.myspace.com/katie_bug_88
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hugs. i thought might need one. i think we can help each other out..
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Haven't sent you a hug for a while...hopefully you are doing okay...Huggy...Barb
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Close Self-Injury
I started to continue sly pick scabs when i was 13 and at 14 I started to cut, I will stop for months at a time then start again, I cant stop. It has become something I cant function without.
Treatments
- Talking Somewhat Helpful
- Its nice to say things but at the same time I still hold so much back I dont know what I feel.
Close Sexual Abuse
the first guy i ever dated or cared for didn't like the word no and decided that he liked it when i cried and wanted to get away from him. It started off with hitting me and then ended with him taking my virginity bye force at the age of 15.
Treatments
- Talking Not Working
- it scares me to talk about it
Open Depression - Teen
The symptoms that you read on those papers for depression always made me think and as i would read them i could justify each of them on how i was feeling and stuff.I was put on meds that I don't like to take. I have a tendency push people away so i don't get hurt, i know i am loved but i wont believe it.
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Open Gay & Lesbian Teens
I have always been a little iffy iffy when it comes to close sexual interaction with a guy and that could be because of my abuse I have had, its just when I am with a girl I feel safe, I don't know if I am a lesbian or bi or anything, I am just so confused in my head, I was raised as if you were gay or anything it was a sin and I don't believe it, I just want to be happy. Yet I don't know what makes me happy.
Open Bisexuality
I really don't know how to say it. I like guys but girls to. Its confusing to know what I want.
Open Eating Disorders
I don't eat or I will eat late at night. I don't know if its a disorder or not but it does affect me.
Open Rape
I was 15, I didn't know what sex was r4eally. I was always told you did it when you love someone. He rapped me. I said no stop we cant but he didnt listen. I had never been so scared. He took from me the only thing I thought was mine, he hurt me so much, I was so young and now I am just so scared and confused. I don't know if I can ever have sex for anything. I just am so unsure.
Open Military Families
We aren't biologically related, but 2 of my good friends jointed the Navy. Kyle is in Japan and Ed is in Hawaii. Steve, the man I feel in love with who is in the Navy is now in Vermont. I miss them so much.
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